[ starry me ]

Another life.

2010-11-06T02:56:00.000+08:00

Every morning, I'll look out the window.
Sometimes, I'll just stare at the glorious sky.

Shades of orange, yellow, green and blue - blending into one vast space.

Stretching, reaching, enveloping.

With the sounds of birds chirping, cars driving past, and a small table lamp.
I'll read stories of you, of both of you, of how you were meant to be, but never will be.

And with an aching heart, I cry a river.

Because Super Junior's coming back!

2010-04-19T21:30:00.000+08:00

Need I say anymore? (:

International ELFs!
Please support Super Junior 4th Album!
Details are in this website --> http://www.twelfs.com/blog/2010/04/09/twelfs-support-super-junior-4jib-album/

Oh! My Lady - Giving it as much love as possible!

2010-03-22T21:16:00.001+08:00

I fully admit that I'm watching this drama because I'm giving my best to support Super Junior's Choi Si Won, who's one of the main actors in this drama.

From the directors of one of my favourite drama - "Family's Honor"
SBS presents to you,

Oh! My Lady
Showing every Monday & Tuesday, 8.50 KST.
With the two main characters - Chae Rim as Yoon Gae-Hwa, and Choi Si Won as Sung Min-Woo.

It's a pity I don't live in Korea, so watching this drama on livestream won't help it's viewer ratings increase ):

Korean ELFs ah ~ Please give this drama lots of love!

Picture credits:
Official SBS poster, followed by fanmade poster by audreysky@soompi

One more day before I'm back from Hiatus

2010-03-02T00:04:00.000+08:00

It's been a while.

I'll blog more tomorrow, when my one month Hiatus is over.

But as for today, apart from my thoughts relating to Super Junior, there's nothing more I can say,

except for this:

When I hear Kimball Cho from The Mentalist Season 2 apologising in Korean,
I couldn't control my emotions.

I was surprised my sudden breakdown,
for the episode itself wasn't really that heartbreaking,
but after a day of thinking over it, I finally realised why.

~~Super Junior,~~

~~I'm really sorry.~~

~~Please forgive me for being so helpless.~~

I'm starting to miss my CitiBank Temps already D:

No matter where I turn.

2010-02-11T00:35:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry.
For not being strong enough to protect you.

In order to keep this promise,
I don't even know where I should be heading.

But I still 13elieve that You are going to guide me,
that You will point to me which way I should go towards -
in order to fulfill this wish, this promise,

this heart wrenching desire.

No matter how I try to run,
no matter where I turn,

I'll still be stuck in this grey area,
where I have to choose,

and face it all.

If only I had the power,
then you could have it all.

The wind is passing by.

2010-02-03T01:12:00.001+08:00

I did OverTime today and earned some extra cash to cover up my losses I will be making for taking leave today!

But I nearly offended a huge group of people today! D:
Gosh seriously, the things Sugar Rush does to me ):
I can't blame it entirely on chocolate anyway,
I just have to learn how to be more discrete!

My colleagues are work are really fun to be with,
I'm pretty sure I'll miss them after our contract ends on the 28th Feb ):

Oh well, I already know this feeling of 'moving on' relatively well,
so I'm sure I'll handle it (:

I'm taking leave today because...
I'll be going back to AJC for the Orientation Finale (:

I'm sure I'll be having mix feelings of nostalgia & worry when I step into the AJC school compound later. It's been a while since I returned to AJC!

I'm rethinking about my University Course ):
Which makes things more complicated and worrying.

At least I got my new LG Lollipop!

My fetish for cute things is everlasting!
Why do you think my loyalty & support for Super Junior is everlasting as well?

Because Super Junior members are all so cute! <3

Before I forget them again,
I really need to do the following things:

1) Arrange Clique outing at Pasir Ris Beach!
2) Write down all my expenditures the last two months
3) Book Chalet for Squadmates in March
4) Check out University Courses AGAIN
5) Go shopping with my friends at least once before Alevels results are released!
6) Order/Make Super Junior merchandise (key chains, stuff toys)
7) Learn how to knit/crotchet or some artsy skill before I start University

And I'll be dedicating a superjunior spazz post to Super Junior's evil magnae KyuHyun when I return from the Orientation Finale <3

Because it's Evil Magnae KyuHyun's birthday today (:

If only it's within my power;

this helplessness - I can no longer bear.

Monica Lee, become stronger,
so that you can fight & protect the ones you love.

I'll do something about this; I will never forget it.

And if I end up failing, I'll regret it for the rest of eternity.

Drowing in the Blue Sapphire Sea.

2010-01-25T23:51:00.000+08:00

I went out with my wonderful UG mates on sunday!

Wore the MOST CASUAL CLOTHES ever (:
But seriously, to be able to wear such casual rug-like clothes with them clearly proves one point, and one point only -

they are the people I'm most comfortable with.

We were like making a mess at Bugis MRT,
rushing our scrapbook for Poorani & glueing all sorts of random photos on it.

And I think my paper-tearing skills have improved drastically(;

Sighs, it was a relatively short meeting,
but it was fun nonetheless(:

We ate at a HongKong cafe recommended by Lawyer.The food's okay, but I don't know why my noodles was salty!

AND PLEASE, NO ARRANGED MARRIAGES ):

We got 7 cute looking badges!
Wanted to bargain, but failed miserably.
I think XR's one is the most appropriate one.
It says "I'm NEVER Rong!"
Please, that badge was totally made for her ~

Then I finally bought the donuts for my colleagues,
thanks to XR, JingWen and two other Aj guitar girls (:

I'm also happy I finally collected my SJM Super Girl Album after so long, and finally got my cute organiser from Art Box.

However, my heart's still aching.

Helplessness,
whatever should I do?

Things to do

2010-01-21T23:45:00.000+08:00

Okey Dokey.

Work has been relatively fun & tiring so far.

I was indeed surprise to meet PeiTing at this Temp Job, even after not contacting her for so long. And I met Jia Yi at Millenia Walk during my Lunch Break! I mean, Singapore is just damn small, seriously, I keep bumping into people!

Though I made two mistakes during work yesterday,
I've already told myself to not repeat it again during this 2 months there.
Though the fact that the supervisors are really friendly makes it even more difficult for me to prevent myself from committing the same mistake, I'll try my best ):

And I'm grateful that LiTing & Joey from MJC are friendly lunch buddies too (: So I'll just keep a positive thought about things.

Last week, I missed UG's outing again ):
Though I'll definitely make it this coming Sunday, when we're going to meet Poorani after so long ~

Sighs, I just remembered that I owe a few people many letters ):

There's just so much to do lately ):
And so much to think about ):

University courses & Super Junior are always on my mind.
The constant use of 'ALT TAB' and Microsoft Excel, as well as making sure the 'CAN fits the PAN' is starting to get slightly mundane.
My eye sight is definitely getting worse - for crying out loud, who's eyesight won't get worse after staring at thousands of 6 to 16 digit numbers the entire 4-5 hours??!!!?!
Bills to pay, money issues to settle.
At least my part time work pays me well, thank you God for this job! (:

Oh yes, there's still the all important Meetings & Chalets to plan.

Crap, I better start planning the Frellies chalet already.
I'm like wayyyyyy behind schedule ):
I'm so sorry my dear frellies ):

And I don't know whether is it sympathy or helplessness,
but I always feel a bit queezy about the whole thing ever since I heard about it from my mother.

Perhaps the saying is true;

"In order to understand what it's like to be loved,
you must know how to love."

I wonder what hurts more,
Fantasy or Reality?

What if you hug the blue balloon too tight?

2010-01-13T23:28:00.000+08:00

I actually have lots to blog about.

No, let me rephrase that -

I have lots of HAPPY things to blog about.

1) Wonderful outing with my Squadmates/Frellies at Marina Barrage
2) Met Serena and gained a rough idea about which University to enroll in
3) Got a new job, met new friends/colleagues

But I just don't have to mood right now.

Yes, I am happy.
Well, I was happy at those momentary points of time with my old friends and new colleagues.

And if you know me long enough, or well enough, whichever comes first, you'll know how I look like when I'm truly happy.

But recently, I feel truly happy, and truly sad the very next moment.

It drives me half-insane.

Well, at least I'm experiencing a new emotion.
So I'll just be grateful.

Have you ever wondered,
what happens if you hug the blue balloon too tightly?

That's right,
the blue balloon will burst, right in front of your face.

So what should I do to protect this blue balloon?
I'll have to let it go.

Floating in the blue sapphire sea.

2010-01-08T14:29:00.001+08:00

Okay, I've finally returned to normal.
Though I'm pretty sure my friends must be thinking,
"When does Monica ever act normal??!!"

But yeah, at least I got my emotions and feelings sorted out,
though I'm still a little sad because today's 8th January 2010,
and if you're an ELF too, you will know what this day really means.

And because I no longer wish to torture those friends who aren't into Kpop or aren't ELFs, I've created a separate blog for my Super Junior spazzes & to set up my emotional rollar costers over Super Junior(:

http://lovingsuperjunior.blogspot.com
Go there if you want to hear my spazzes & rants (:

Anyway, it's the new year already.
2010. Two Zero One Zero.

Saying 'Time flies' is no longer necessary,
because I believe we have all come to realise how short life really is, and instead of being poetric about how time zooms by before we even notice, we should start doing something before each second slips through our fingers.

So what am I currently doing?

Tons of stuff.

1) Looking for my part-time job

Actually I've found a number of vacancies for part-time jobs on the internet and through YanYue's Mother (Thank you so much for the help!), but at the end of the day, I have to ask my mom for her approval.

Thankfully, my mother's friend found a one-month job for me, and now I'm waiting for confirmation whether I'll be employed!

But after that one month, I really hope I can go work some place else.

I really want the experience and money! $$$
(No, I'm not really money minded, but recently, I'm extremely short of money, and my ever growing wishlist is tearing a bigger hole in my pocket D:)

2) ~~Enrolling for Japanese Classes~~ Getting ready for Jap Classes

Now that I've finally enrolled into Bunka Language School, which was recommended to me by a number of people, friends and ELFs included (thank you!), I think I better start reviewing on my Hiragana and it's prnounciation. Because listening to Korean Pop and watching Korean Drama these days are screwing my pronounciation for Japanese characters D:

Seriously, I'm having thoughts of learning Korean after getting JLPT3!

3) Start reviewing on my Movies, Manga, KDrama and Anime

Oh gosh, thinking of these already gives me a headache, because that's nearly 20-30 reviews I need to do O.O

I've recently watched 2012 with my Mother.
I thought it had many plot loopholes, but at the very least, it manages to capture the emotions of the viewer.

Avatar 3D - with SG ELFs!
It was such a fun experience, the girls are really funny and friendly!
Talking on MSN with them is hell fun and hilarious. And it's such a pleasure to know that there are devoted Spore ELFs around. I would love to go out with them again!

New Moon - with TYY& SXR!
LOL I've blogged about this already, but I must emphasise, it's really a disappointment!

And I'm really sorry towards my two dearies for bursting out into laughter as weird scenes, because I've read the Twilight Saga twice, and some of the scenes potrayed in the movie is just NOT WHAT IT'S SUPPOSE TO BE, but yeah it's just a movie production of it, so I'll won't criticise it (:

Case 39 - with JAMJ
ROFL! We wanted to trick JiaXin that we were watching New Moon, but failed miserably. And Jeryl and I were screaming and grabbing each other like maniacs at certain horrifying nightmare-worthy scenes. I guess Horror & Thriller just isn't really my cup of tea!

And though it's a little embarrassing to put this up,
ah, but what the heck (x

We didn't watch Planet 51 (I still haven't!) but the board was there, and we were a little crazy, so we just took the picture. Mouse was suppose to take it with us, but she didn't wanna! ):

4) Looking for a new phone

I've narrowed my search to Sony Ericsson K660i, T707 and Samsung SGH-F480i. But I have a particular liking for T707, because it's a clamshell/flip phone, and I really wanna try snapping my phone shut for the sake of being drama (x

I like the blue one (: The Samsung SGH-F480i is a touch screen phone, so that's my second choice.

One thing to note though - I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH THEY COST D:

I'm hoping they fall lesser than $150 ):
Considering the prices of phones these days, it's wishful thinking eh?

Went for a girlfriends gathering at YanYue's house for BBQ on 26th Dec 2009!
It's just so fun to be with those girls again! And because we were all girls, and starting the fire just isn't our forte, we eventually had to ask for help, and the BBQing was a little frustrating because WE COULDNT BBQ CHICKEN WINGS PROPERLY D: It was always uncook, and we took a really long time cooking the food. But it was fun la (: At least I got to see Eeyore again!

All was well and fun, if only Nekuin was around! Oh yea, we forgot to spray confetti at Edlyn for being the last to come though (:

We surprised YanYue with a birthday cake, though I kind of guess she didn't really like surprises and such attention, but who cares! (x At least she's happy and we got to celebrate her birthday with her!

We met a very curious and greedy cat! The girls fell in love with it and started feeding it prawns - much to YY's disapproval. So we eventually had to guide the cat away because it refuses to leave! And farhani and I had to play 'bad girls' because we had to deceive the cat by using a chicken wing to lead it away from our BBQ pit, and the moment the cat turned his/her head, we ran away!

I still feel a little sorry for abandoning the cat like this, because I'm sure it'll feel very hurt if it was abondoned before, as most stray animals were abondoned pets (shame on you owners!). So yeah ): I hope that it'll eat well and stay healthy, and hopefully some kind sould who's able to rear animals (unlike me) can pick it up to raise it under lots of care and affection!

Nekuinsaur's coming back to Spore soon! So we can all go out to East Coast Park/Pasir Ris for a picnic!

I'm recently pretty into baking and cooking, so hopefully I'll be able to master baking cookies and cupcakes, or even Sherpard's Pie when we arranged for our little picnic at the beach!

Perhaps we should go sentosa? (:

If this is what you truly desire from the bottom of you heart,

with broken hearts and tears,

we'll smile, and let you go.

I've found my place - inside the pearl blue sapphire sea.

2010-01-05T16:06:00.002+08:00

LAUGH OUT LOUD.

Seriously, I realise that there's one major flaw about blogger - I can't record sounds and post it in my posts.

Because I really want to record myself laughing out loud right now, and let everyone (or is there anyone?) who comes by my blog to listen to my ridiculous laughter.

I thought I would waver.
During those moments of thought and tears,
I really thought I would.

But after so much thinking, after so much reading,
after so much crying,
I finally realise,

it's too late.

Because I'm already, permanently & eternally an Everlasting Friend.

And now I realise that nothing will ever change that fact.

The previous objective posts have been edited accordingly as I have came to a conclusion.

I'm an ELF, so I'll be Super Junior's protection, for longer than forever.

I'll just keep praying and believing that the 13 of them will be happy and reunite one day.

A huge thank you to the author of cheonsa23.wordpress.com, authors of sapphirepearls.com, authors of sup3rjunior.wordpress.com, authors of Twelfs.com and fellow SG ELFs - who have constantly encouraged me to continue to trust and 13elieve in Super Junior no matter what nonsence other netizens spew about Suju. And thank you for finally allowing to see my own heart; for making me realise that all along my heart's been trusting Suju and my strong desire to be their ultimate shield & protection no matter what happens in the near or far future.

And thank you, my dear friends in real life (you know who you are ^^) who have listened to my worries and rants over Super Junior these past few weeks, and thank you for worrying about me when I was feeling so down because of the HanKyung sshi's law suit case.

This blog will no longer be in hiatus,
for I've found where my heart truly lies -

Inside the pearl blue sapphire sea.

"Until the day when the whole world is covered with sapphire blue balloons, I'll keeping believing, because from LeeTeuk sshi to Everlasting Friends - We will always be ONE"

on hiatus

2010-01-04T04:39:00.002+08:00

(Republished on 5th Jan 2010,

after the author has found where her heart truly lies)

~~The previous post has once again been kept 'private'.~~

The author has poured way too much feelings & emotions into these issue, hence objective and highly opinionated blog posts about Super Junior will be kept 'private' for the mean time. (And now they have been edited and republished)

~~The previous blog posts will be published publicly again once they have been edited accordingly to her final view point of the HanKyung sshi law suit matter.~~

~~This blog will remain in hiatus until the author has reached her final decision.~~

~~This hiatus will last approximately until February, or even March.~~

~~However, the author has left her final words before leaving this blog on hiatus:~~

As an everlasting friend, it's my duty to protect them, so I will protect them. For now, I'll still 13elieve in 13+2 pearl blue sapphire balloons, but I'm really praying the situation isn't what it appears to be.

I want to 13elieve, but you're not making it easy for me.

I love you, friends and loved ones! Stay healthy & happy!

Because it's just too hard to forget,

and I know I'll never be able to.

The one who cut his own blue sapphire balloon's string.

2010-01-02T17:01:00.008+08:00

(Republished on the 5th Jan 2010.

This blog post no longer applies because the author realised that it hurts her more to not 13elieve in HanKyung sshi than to 13elieve in him.

And since the author has decided to follow her heart, she will keep 13elieving and will keep praying that things aren't always what it seems to be.

She will 13elieve.)

~~Some of the previous posts have been kept 'private' due to certain changes in mindset of the author about the Super Junior situation.~~

~~I don't know about other ELFs,~~
~~but from my point of view,~~
~~it seems that the one who's really stirring the whole matter up,~~
is you.

~~And didn't I say I'll support 13+2 so long as none of you give up on yourselves?~~

~~I may not know what exactly is going on,~~
~~I may not know the exact situation you're going through,~~
~~but the burning flame within me has been frozen into an ice block.~~

For now, I will keep to my promise,
to 13elieve in the 13+2 pearl blue sapphire balloons.

~~But don't throw rocks at me,~~
~~don't splash cold words at me,~~
~~or hurl insults to my face if there ever comes a day where I say that I will break this promise -~~
the promise that I initially intend to keep for a lifetime.

~~Because from where I stand,~~
~~the one who first broke the promise,~~
~~is you.~~

Forever. Till the day I die.

2009-12-24T02:01:00.008+08:00

(Republished on 5th Jan 2010

This blog post no longer applies as the author has gained a new mindset and viewpoint about the issue.

On the other hand, the author will still forever remember the day 24/12/09 and will continue to keep to her promise to find out the REAL TRUTH behind this whole issue if she ever finds her chance to do so and if it's within her capabilities.

This is not an empty promise, for the next few decades till her death, the author will always remember this incident that has caused so much hardship and pain to the people she vowed to protect.)

~~As a Christian, I'm not suppose to swear.~~
~~Because God's great and He can change many things.~~
~~I respect the Lord and follow His teachings.~~
~~I believe He is real and He is the Almighty.~~
~~King of kings, Lord of lords.~~

~~Right now, I'm standing on the fence.~~
~~With barb wires piercing through my soles of my feet,~~
~~and splinters from the wooden fence rubbing against my ankles.~~
~~Because I'm a Christian, I wonder.~~
~~Will this become a sin?~~

~~I may be just one in a thousand billion people.~~
~~This may be just one in a hundred thousand blogs.~~

~~But I swear upon the life principles my life revolves around,~~
~~the moral values I vowed to upkeep-~~

~~I will never forget this.~~
On this very day, 24th December 2009.
~~If ever I get the chance, the very opportunity to take this revenge,~~
~~even if it takes my entire lifetime, even if I end up failing,~~
~~I swear I will try my best and do everything within my power.~~
~~Because I'll never forget what you've done to the people I promised to protect.~~
~~Even if it isn't me, I know some one will do it on my behalf.~~
~~On our behalf.~~
~~One day, you will regret this.~~
~~Just you wait and see.~~

~~This blog will be in Hiatus until the author calms down.~~

Everlasting Friends, it's time to get ready.

2009-12-23T02:30:00.010+08:00

(Republished after 5th Jan 2010)

After reading more in depth details about HanKyung sshi's case against SMentertainment from sapphirepearls.com, I'm in greater distress.

Only three things are swirling in my mind right now:

1) How are the other Super Junior members coping?

They must be in so much stress & hurt because of all these news.
Please take care of yourselves, please!

2) Whatever will happen next?

Don't get me wrong, I believe in the 13+2 of them.
And when I say I believe, I meant I believe they will make the most appropriate decision. As much as I really pray they wouldn't ~~disband~~, I will pray even harder for the correct choice to be made; a choice which only benefits all Super Junior members & HanKyung, instead of that profit-making SMentertainment.

3) Where will ELFs all over the world stand?

If the worst possible situation occurs, all hell will break lose. And judging by the large number of ELFs all around the world, I can assure you lots of tears, chaos outside SMentertaintment's office and blood shed.

Most importantly, because of our great numbers, I fear our different perspective towards this issue will split us all.

I know it's impossible to unite all of us ELFs together as one,
but for once after these 5 years of living, I'll do my part to make this impossible task come to reality.

I'm willing to lower my tower high pride and throw my face if necessary.

Just watch me.

Before I became an ELF, I couldn't understand the pain & suffering all those Cassies (Fans of DBSK) and Hottests (Fans of 2PM) went through when the problems of ~~disbanding~~ arose.

But now, I dare say, I fully and completely understand.
And to all those Cassies & Hottests, thank you for supporting us.
Your support gives us ELFs even greater strength to become ONE.

photo credits: sj-market

photo credits: KYURANGER!@soompi.com

ELFs.
Together, we will be their protection.
13elieve.

Pearl Blue Sapphire Balloons, all 15 of them, please.

2009-12-21T23:30:00.001+08:00

So many things are happening in just one day that my mind's swirling.

Like what Twelfs said on their tweet,

"Leeteuk wasn't crowned as The Best Idol Group Leader for nothing. I believe he can keep the group together. I trust Leeteuk and Hankyung."

Super Junior will forever be 13+2.

Till the day pearl sapphire blue balloons cover the whole world,
we will never give up, so don't give up on yourselves.

When the wind's too strong, will the strings of those blue balloons snap?

2009-12-21T18:47:00.004+08:00

MAJOR EDIT.

I've decided.

I'll not panic and trust in the 13+2 of them until full confirmation and clarification is released to the public, straight from HanKyung sshi's mouth himself.

I don't think I'll be believing in any SME statements or whatnot.
It must be said by HanKyung sshi personally.

It just doesn't make any sense.

And I've decided to look at KyuHyun sshi's Cyworld entry in another perspective.

"2009.12.21 Monday 18:25

Even a beast don't bite the hand that feeds one...

I can not understand..."

Source: sj-world.net
Posted by: Shining Min under 'Dear E.L.F' section.

I will look at it as how kimberly_7911 did.
"even a beast won't bite the hands that feeds it, so why do you all think that hankyung will do that or even resort to this. so he doesn't understand these people".

Yes, Super Junior, you must stand by each other.

It's natural for us ELFs to freak out, but we promise to wait for further clarification and confirmation. Because we believe in you guys.

So please, don't ever give up on yourselves.

----------------------------------------------

Oh gosh oh gosh oh gosh.

WHAT THE WORLD IS GOING ON?

Why am I seeing strange posts about HanKyung shhi's _________???

PLEASE, FOR CRYING OUT LOUD,
Please don't let this be another DBSK incident!

I will BELIEVE only if EVERY SINGLE SHIT is confirmed and only if HanKyung sshi himself admits it PUBLICALLY.

Then I'll reconsider whether I should continue to believe & respect the 13+2 of you.

PLEASE.
What in the world are you trying to do?

2009-12-21T17:19:00.000+08:00

19 Dec 2009

Went out with TYY, Small Rong & ShiQi to watch 'New Moon'.

I don't even need to review this movie in my review blog, because I can sum up my feelings about this in one word (no offense to the fans of this Movie series):

DISAPPOINTED.

I personally feel that at least this second movie is slightly better than the first one, but I'm seriously having doubts whether I should buy the DVD at all :/

To put it in Spill.com's words: RENTAL. (It wasn't worth my 10 bucks)

But the fighting scenes between the werewolves were rather interesting, so I'm looking forward to the 3rd and 4th movie (if there will be one, because they obviously didn't combine the second and third book into the second movie) because third book contains the most fighting scenes, and I'm really anticipating how they will showcase a Vampire versus Werewolf scene ^^

Anyway, it felt real nice to shop & fool around with my dear friends again (: I hope there's gonna be a BBQ this coming Saturday! Hehe, can't wait (:

I finally fixed my internet connection! So I'll be into re-watching movies and re-reading Manga to review on them, as well as catching up on 'Smile, You' and see what I can do to help out in the SG ELF project (check out http://superjunior-miracles.blogspot.com) and finish making those Christmas Gifts I've been planning since last year :/

Sighs, I really want a job ): So that I can have more money to donate & stuff. Money Money Money.

Don't make it turn back to my old ways.
I'm still on 50-50.

LOL, if my dear Small Rong didn't mention in my tagboard how much I've been posting about Super Junior recently, I really wouldn't have noticed!

Sighs, whatever should I do? The 13+2 of them have become part of my worries and part of my prayers.

I think I'm one of the strangest ELF around :(

If only well-wishes and comforts could be of any help at all.

2009-12-20T01:31:00.000+08:00

Just like everyone else, I'm starting to worry for SuperJunior's angelic leader all over again ):
I was really hoping that the GDA & Melon Awards will cheer him up for a longer period of time.

We all know how busy he is and how much responsibility he has to handle everyday, especially recently when he's now starting out as an MC in the entertainment industry and all that. But we all know that he'll strive on and do his best, right?
Seeing so many other ELFs getting all worried for SJ's eternal leader, no matter which member they are bias towards, is really heartwarming.

I'm praying that our prayers and well-wishes will somehow help soothe his headaches & heartaches.

SUPER JUNIOR'S ETERNAL LEADER, FIGHTING!!!

Melon Awards 2009

2009-12-20T00:36:00.002+08:00

Let me state one of the reasons why I really dislike moving house:

No Internet Connection.

And I just had to move house during the PERFECT TIME.

Melon Awards 2009.

I couldn't vote for SuperJunior for 4 days, and Super Junior lost to DBSK in 2009 Star and 2009 Mania. Don't get me wrong, DBSK/TVXQ has wonderful songs as well, but as a non-official ELF, it's just pure instinct to vote for Super Junior, right?

But it's a good thing that DBSK won as well, because SJ's EunHyuk and DBSK's Xiah are good buddies, and Super Junior and DBSK have good relationships, so I'm feeling glad for DBSK, yet upset we lost those awards to them ):

What hurts even more is that SuperJunior only claimed the Top 10 Artist Award for the MA2009, even though they sweeped 2009 Artist and 2009 Song in the online votings!

Sighs, what's there to do now except to make 2010 an even better year for them?

Good news though, I'm occasionally able to use the internet on my dad's laptop, so I'll keep myself updated to SuperJunior's news & whatnot, until my internet connection is completely fixed.

Even more good news - I seem to have found a SG SuperJunior ELF project organised by SG ELFs themselves! It's both meaningful and beneficial to the less fortunate! I'll be giving my full support and help to them whenever possible!

Everyone, this is what a group of 13 people who were born into this world, just like you and me, gave their best in everything they do, nurtured their talents and fought for their dreams no matter how life threw boulders at them, uphold honesty and earnesty despite all the Fame and Money revolving around them, and made a difference in other people's lives.

And the lives that they touched and changed are now doing their best to reach out to even more people all over the world.

This is what it really means by 'Paying it Forward'.

Please visit their blog at:
www.superjunior-miracles.blogspot.com

I'm trying my best to get more details as to how big Singapore's SuperJunior Fanbase really is! I'm getting positive response by many SG ELFs from sjworld, so I'm really excited! (:

On a side note, there are more and more reports saying that SJM has plans to come to Singapore.

And now since I've declared being a non-official ELF, I have mixed feelings about this.

Reason is simple - SJM has SO MANY ACTIVITIES till I'm really praying that they have enough time to take care of their own HEALTH & WELFARE rather then travelling all the way to little Singapore to have a fan-meet or what not.

Don't get me wrong, as much as I really want to personally be part of the blue sapphire sea or watch their live concerts, I am even more willing to pay triple the price of their concert tickets to enable the 7 members of SJM (and of course to Kim KiBum and all the other brothers of SuperJunior) 'more rest time' or 'better health and welfare'.

Seriously, I'm starting to wonder what does it mean to be an ELF;
to pray for more variety shows, albums & concerts from SuperJunior?
Or to pray for Super Junior's happiness & good health?

After thoughts on Golden Disk Award 2009

2009-12-11T02:42:00.000+08:00

I have to type this out,
otherwise I'm super sure I'll cry my heart out tonight.

My happiness and how proud I am of Super Junior is just indescribable, and I'm 100% sure many other ELFs (official or non-official) out there feel the same way as me.

One of their biggest dream was to stand on that very stage to receive the Disk Daesung Award,

And they finally made it.
And they will continue to work hard to achieve so much more.

Unfortunately, not all 13 were there (for various reasons I don't wish to explain), and those Eleven + hundred thousands ELFs hearts broke knowing that they couldn't share their happiness as a whole team of 13.

After watching so many variety shows and fancams and interviews of Super Junior, even though I know many other Korean Artists put in a lot of effort in their work too,

I dare say Super Junior deserves the Golden Disk Daesung Award 2009 more than any other Korean Artists/Band/Idol/Group.

All their hard work, sweat, tears and blood were shed for this moment - they truly deserve this recognition and deserve this happiness, all 100% of it.

I actually became teary when I heard EeTeuk shii (The wonderful & angelic leader of SuJu) gave the speech during the awards. DongHae sshi and EunHyuk sshi started crying as well. I expected EunHyuk sshi to cry, but when I saw DongHae sshi teary eyed, the first thing I thought was, "Were you thinking about how proud your Father would have been if he was alive to see this very moment?"

The pain, the relief, the happiness.
Indescribable.

And when I saw this photo taken by a fan,
I just broke down out of happiness & worry.

photo credits: 13infamyss @ soompi.com

Thank you for being such a great leader.
You deserve this. All 13 of you deserve this.

And then I start worrying again,
how long & how much more can we ELFs give you such support?

Forever more,
and a million times more.

Yes, until the day the whole world's covered with pearl sapphire blue balloons, the thirteen of you won't give up.

And neither will we.

SUPER JUNIOR + ELFs = ONE.

Melon Awards 2009, here we go!

Golden Disk Award 2009

2009-12-10T19:44:00.006+08:00

Final Edit:

I'm actually slightly teary, I'm so happy for the 13 of them.
A lot of ELFs out there must be crying as well (:

The complete list of winners:
(credits to elavip @ soompi)

Digital Bonsangs
Baek Ji Young
Davichi
Son Dam Bi
SNSD
Lee Seung Gi

Digital Daesang
SNSD

Disk Bonsangs
SG Wannabe
Super Junior
Tiger JK
2PM
Lee Seungchul

Disk Daesang
Super Junior

Newcomer Award
4Minute
T-ara

Hip Hop Award
Epik High

Rock Award
Jang Gi Ha and Faces

Popularity Award
SHINee
Super Junior

Congrats to all other winners!
SM artists sweeped the major awards!

Ahh, I'm so happy right now :)

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EDIT 3:

Golden Disk Daesang Awards goes to:

Super Junior.

SUPER JUNIOR IS THE BIGGEST WINNER OF GOLDEN DISK AWARDS 2009!

SuperJunior + ELFs = ONE

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EDIT 2:

SUPER JUNIOR WON THE SAMSUNG YEPP POPULARITY AWARD AT GDA AS WELL!

Seriously, how can their awesomeness be ignored? (:

I'm so proud & happy for them! (:

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EDIT 1:

OH YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

SUPER JUNIOR WON THE DISK BONSANG AWARD AT GDA!

WOOTS!

Now I'm just praying for the next two awards to be theirs! (:

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Oh gosh oh gosh oh gosh.

I AM SO WORRIED FOR IT!

Super Junior is nominated for:
1) Disk Bonsang Award
2) Digital Bonsang Award
3) SAMSUNG Yeep Popularity Award

I really hope they will clinch all three!

-crosses fingers.

PS: Bonsang - Album. So 'Disk Bonsang Award' is something like 'Best Album Award'

Those sapphire blue tears.

2009-12-08T23:41:00.000+08:00

This is incredible.

My reactions are just so unbelievable to me
that I think I'm slightly out of my mind.

"Why the world are you crying?? You're being tricked!"

"It's all just their acting and facades!"

"It's part of their duty as an Artists to act this way in front of their fans, don't you see? Why are you getting so emotional about their wonderful, realistic acting?"

These thoughts raced through my mind countless times whenever I watch Super Junior concerts, variety shows and interviews.

I tried to keep a strong front, I did my best to control my emotions, so that I won't be 'tricked' by the facades and image Artists portray in front of others.

But the more I watch, the more I start to wonder, is it possible for them to act so naturally like this? Why does it look so, real?

And after I watched the video embedded above, the front I so carefully built came crashing down.

"Is this all just a dream?"
"Do these people really love me for who I am?"
"How long more can we receive such tremendous love and support?"
"Does someone like me deserve this much happiness?"
"For these people who looked up to me, I must work even harder."
"In order to keep this dream alive, we'll continue to give in our all"

These are the thoughts I saw while watching their faces.

How can their acting be so realistic?

Because it's not a show or a facade,
it's all real.

Thank you.
Because of this, I've not only learned another lesson,
I've found another group of people that I'll give my absolute loyalty and protection to.

Will SJM come to Singapore?

2009-12-05T15:42:00.000+08:00

OMGOSH I SAW THIS VIDEO ON YOUTUBE!
AND I TOTALLY SCREAMED!

There is a small small possibility that SJM may visit SINGAPORE!

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY :D

But in all honesty, I rather the whole 13+2 Super Junior Members visit Singapore for some fan-meeting, or better yet, hold a concert.

The only concern I have is that I'm not really confident of the number of non-official ELFs in Singapore, because I really don't want them to make an effort to come down to this small island and end up not having many people supporting them.

Seriously, I think I should start initiating Singapore non-official ELF meetings in Sj-World.net!

The strings holding the Sapphire Blue Balloons together

2009-11-29T20:23:00.000+08:00

I thought it would just remain a memory.
I was so wrong.

It's still seems unbelievable for someone like me to go slightly obssess with Singers/Idols/Artists because I'd dare say I've never onced viewed an Artist as a Human Being - it's instinctive of me to view whether image or show they put up in front of the camera as 'part of their job' and never part of their personality.

But the more variety shows of Super Junior I watch, the more the line I drew between the duty as a worker and the duty as a human being starts to fade.

As an ELF, I will not describe what scene or from which Variety Show I watched this scene from as spreading unnecessary rumours brings no benefit to the 13 Sapphire Blue Balloons, but I can proudly say one thing:

The strong friendship, trust and understanding I saw between the 4 blue balloons and the 1 blue balloon, which being put in a difficult position, reminded me of what it was like with my Beloved Squadmates.

Without caring of your personal pride, without bothering what others may say,
protecting & supporting one another is your first priority.

It was suppose to be a comedic scene, but when I saw the 4 blue balloons protecting and stepping forward to defend their fellow blue balloon,
I cried uncontrollably.

Those hardships, those raw emotions, the determination, the disappointment.
They are no longer just memories,
they've become a part of me.

It's my past that makes me who I am today.

I missed The Royal Princess' (Verna) birthday on friday,
and if I have to describe my feelings in words alone, I would say it's impossible.

However, on this day when I saw those strong and firm strings of friendships on a comedy variety programme, I was reassured that those memories we shared together as one squad were not forgotten,
and will never be.

Thank you.

Dedicated to Kang In of SuperJunior.

2009-11-27T11:30:00.001+08:00

In all honesty, I do agree that Kang In did make a mistake.
But he has apologised, and he is currently paying the price for his actions.
What more do you Netizens want from him?

So please Netizens, stop pressurising him any further.

I saw this from SapphirePearls, and I thought I should somehow play my part to spread the word too.

This will be included in my prayers.

And if I can have my say in this matter,
I think it'll be more disappointing if Kang In gives up in this battle.
So please, fight on and endure it all.

The ELFs will always be there for you!

Melon Music Awards - VOTING FOR SJ!

2009-11-26T16:46:00.000+08:00

Oh gosh, I have no idea what's gotten into me but I so desperately want to bridge the voting gap between DBSK's Mirotic and SuJu's SORRY SORRY that I've been voting desperately for the past 2 hours.

I'm so gonna do this for the next 5 more hours or so.

SUPER JUNIOR MUST OWN THE VOTES!

ELFs! KEEP VOTING!!!!!!!!!

And my heart honestly aches whenever I have to vote for SuperJunior instead for FT Island under the 2009 Star Award!

But I'm more loyal to SJ than to FT Island, so what am I suppose to do :(

Sighs, I think I better start buying FT Island CDs next time in order to ease my guilt :(

2009-11-24T17:49:00.000+08:00

Honestly, I can sum up the reasons why I'm suddenly so in love with Kpop culture in one picture.

(Yes, it's hand drawn by me.)

In order of preference (at the moment):
1) Super Junior! (including M, KRY & T)
2) FT Island
3) C.N.Blue
4) 4Men
5) MBlaq

MBlaq looks full of potential, I'm looking forward to new songs from them.

SS501 & 2NE1 are not bad too,
but I only like random songs from their albums.

Kang Hyun-Soo & Seo Jung-In are SO CUTEEEE <3
*starts squealing like crazy.

ELF chanting during SuperJunior's Dream Concert

2009-11-22T22:42:00.000+08:00

I saw this video at sapphirepearls.com (a great website dedicated to SuperJunior).

And I was not only amazed, but literally speechless and extremely touched by the amount of dedication, love and support the ELFs (Everlasting Friends) actually give to SuperJuniors.

The video below is a fancam during Dream Concert, showing how organised and supportive the ELFs are during SuperJunior's performance of the well-known and catchy song "SORRY SORRY".

I was blown-away by the fancam video, because not only did the large majority of the ELFs knew exactly what song lyrics to chant in harmony, if you take a closer look at the blue light sticks,

a large majority of the blue light sticks were moving in sync!!!

How amazing is that?

WELL DONE ELFs!
Keep to your promise of protecting SJ!
Keep supporting them through thick and thin!

SuperJunior & ELFs FIGHTING! <3

*PS: Everlasting Friends (ELF) is the name for SuperJunior's fanbase.

2009-11-19T12:25:00.000+08:00

Because it's just so heartbreaking, that's why.

This is how they kill you from the inside.

And yes, I'm still addicted to
가문의 영광
Family's Honor/ Glory of the Family

2009-11-09T11:16:00.000+08:00

This is the lyrics of the song that Kang Suk sang and performed in the Karaoke for Dan Ah as a demostration to prove that he is a worthy teacher.

임재범 (Lim Jae Bum) - 너를 위해 (For You) Lyrics Translation

어쩜 우린 복잡한 인연에
Maybe we are people
서로 엉켜있는 사람인가봐
Tangled in a complicated relationship
나는 매일 네게 갚지도 못할만큼
Everyday I am debted to you
많은 빚을 지고 있어
Debts that are too much for me to pay back
연인처럼 때론 남남처럼
Sometimes like a couple, sometimes like strangers
계속 살아가도 괜찮은 걸까
Can we keep living on like that
그렇게도 많은 잘못과 잦은 이별에도
Despite countless mistakes and separations
항상 거기 있는 너
You are still there

날 세상에서 제대로 살게해 줄
I know that you are the only person
유일한 사람이 너란걸 알아
Who can help me live properly in this world
나 후회없이 살아가기 위해
I, in order to live without regrets,
너를 붙잡아야 할테지만
Should keep you by my side
내 거친 생각과 불안한 눈빛과
My rough mind and unstable expressions
그걸 지켜보는 너
And you watching it
그건 아마도 전쟁같은 사랑
That is a love like a war
난 위험하니까 사랑하니까
Because I'm dangerous, because I love you
너에게서 떠나줄꺼야
I will leave from you
너를 위해 떠날꺼야
I will leave for you

2009-11-09T02:06:00.000+08:00

Saranghaedo gwaenchani (사랑해도 괜찮니) - 4Men (포면)

I've decided.

I'll live, no longer because I need to survive,
but because I want to.

I will accept anything that comes my way.
I won't try to run, I won't attempt to hide.
I will accept the consequences of my doings.
I'll learn as much as I want to, get hurt as much as possible, laugh as much as possible, fight as much as possible.

These five years of living, I'll regret it.
But no more, not anymore.

Living as a Human, I'll respect it.

The infinite emotions this world has to offer -

I'll take it all.

So please, I pray earnestly to You,
let me have that one wish.
Just this one wish.

"Because you are the love I wagered my everything for."
- 너 하나면 돼 – 포맨(Four Men)

2009-11-09T01:48:00.000+08:00

Alevels starts tomorrow.

I asked her,
"What are you doing? Why must you continue to be this way? Are you torturing yourself on purpose? Can't you already predict what will happen in the future if you continue to be like this?"

She replied softly,
"But strangely, I don't think I'm doing anything absolutely wrong."

I shouted,
"What the world is your problem? Do you so desperately want to disappoint them? Why can't you be like everyone else and fight for higher grounds? Do you intend to pull them down and suffer together with you? How can you be so selfish?"

Another indifferent reply from her,
"Why should I do things I don't want to do? I'm being selfish? What's wrong with doing the things your heart tells you to?"

With disbelief, I retort,
"Your heart? Be realistic! Stop living in your fairytales! Wake up already! How in the world do you know whether your heart tells you to do the right things?"

With sad eyes, she stares into the mirror and whispers,
"Are you asking me to stop listening to my heart?"

I gained a new perspective towards life,
but now after I think over it again,
I hesitate.

Should I really behave this way?

2009-10-29T23:24:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I wonder,

Is it a sin to want something the person doesn't deserve?

Because I clearly don't deserve it.
It's like such a freaking obvious fact, that it actually aches to even think of the slightest tiniest possibility of it becoming reality.

But deep inside of me, I know I really want it.
Not only for myself, but for the people around me.

Because I know It will open the doors leading to authority to make those decisions, and It will increase the opportunities and my ability to help the people close to my heart when they are in need.

Then again, why am I not working towards it?

Selfishness, self-preservation, sloth.
Pitiful, eh?

What an irony.
The more one tries to divert from the nature of Human, the more the person displays the basic characteristics of a Human Being.

How disgusting.

"You must be heaven sent, I swear."
- Something like you, Nsync.

2009-10-26T17:29:00.000+08:00

Because true friends appear in the strangest places,

and strength can be felt from within those ink traces.

Wishing all those taking the Olevels and Alevels all the best.

Cliche it may seem,
but it's seriously not about the grades anymore.

It's about the attitude you have when fighting for those Alphabets to be printed on the report card,
and all those wonderful memories and friends you made while getting there.

Thank you.

If I knew it would end up like this,
I would not have let go.

Yeah, I should never have.

2009-10-16T23:26:00.000+08:00

It's been half a year since the last post.

Many expected and unexpected events occured during the last 6 months.

Receiving Alevel results for Chinese & PW.
AJ 25th Anniversary Celebrations.
AJ|25: Family Day 2009.
Election & Nomination for the 26th SC.
Elects' Camp 2009.
Sports Carnival & Interhouse Games.
The feared MidYears.
CCA Handover Ceremony.
The dreaded Prelims.
Teachers' Day Celebration.

And finally,
Farewell Assembly.

So now when I look back at those one & a half years in Anderson Junior College, beyond the stained walls, the bumpy running tracks and constantly spoiled air-conditioners,

I see a place filled with wonderful memories, a transit point in life where streams of people walk to and fro, some just walk right pass you, while others bothered to turn and smile.

I guess it was the people I met that made the whole lot of a difference.

Funky friends I never expected to have.
Crazy classmates that I never expected to laugh with.
Thoughtful teachers whom I never thought would still exist in this world. Council colleagues who were both an inspiration and a reminder to me of the essence of being Human.

There were even people whom I met and thought we would be friends later on, but the 'later on' dragged and before I realised, it was gone.

Emotions I experienced during the times in college also played a huge role in changing my way of life.

The happiness I never thought I would feel. The helplessness that I haven't fully comprehended. The disappointment I never dreamed of experiencing. The courage I never knew was in me. The tears I never thought I would show.

I guess it's a whole package of experiences I never imagined I would gain in a school like this.

Now that this journey has nearly come to the end, a new beginning awaits.

Who are we going to meet?
Where will we decide to go?
What's the next step?

Uncertainty. Vulnerability. Loneliness.
Voids that memories and relationships fill up to enable us to walk through this endless journey of Life.

Because it's my past the makes me who I am today.

My feelings about the Then & Now?

Excited? Not really.
Relieved? Not exactly.
Reluctance? Not quite.

Regretful?

You bet.

2009-02-15T22:37:00.005+08:00

Post Orientation Syndrome.

(Deleted)

I was just telling myself to not blog for the rest of the year so that I can have one less reason to use my laptop.

But seriously,
I simply can't stop myself from announcing to the entire world
how much I love these people (:

AJC 25th SC & OGLs from Orientation 2009,
You people made a difference, thank you (:

2009-01-25T01:13:00.002+08:00

"I'll betray you. I'll break my promise.
And your trust - I'll trample all over it.
So please, Takahashi.
Hate me, despise me,
and then bury me."

-- Yano Motoharu,
from Bokura Ga Ita by Obata Yuuki

Because nothing ever stays the same.
And because,

it doesn't exist,
and it never will.

2009-01-17T21:35:00.001+08:00

Why ):

Why did I ever believe? ):

2008-12-23T01:54:00.002+08:00

Yes people, I'm back from my trip.

Sorry for the lack of enthusiasm,
I just got all my photos,
so I'll blog a super duper long post tomorrow.

Right now,
my heart's filled with nothing but

the cruel, awful, painful reality.

And my desire to fully comprehend it
has become stronger.

So much stronger, that it's actually
starting to scare me.

That's right, the scar still remains.

2008-12-09T18:26:00.003+08:00

Chotto Matte! Just to explain myself,
the reason why until now I haven't blogged about ANDERNESIA is because I'm still waiting for some of the photos to be uploaded that can be inserted to my blog post.

Blog post with photos are more interesting to read and keep, right?

So, since I don't have all right now ): I'll blog it after my annual family trip! (Which is making me worry because I'm not even done with my homework and revision D: )

Anyway,
right now I'm so helplessly in love with Itazura Na Kiss (Anime) that I'm replaying the opening song 'Kimi Meguru Boku' over and over again.

It's just so freaking sweet and good that I rated it 10/10 on my Anime List, same rating at Ouran High School Host Club and Spirited Away!

I really don't know how to even review it because I think words cannot express my mixed feelings and joy after watching the 25 episodes.

But as usual, can such a love even survive the cruel reality?

Kimi, Meguru, Boku - by Motohiro Hata
Opening theme song for 'Itazura Na Kiss' the Anime.

kimi,meguri,boku - hata motohiro

(English translation on http://gendou.com/amusic/lyrics.php?id=8786&show=0)

Meetings and goodbyes frolic in the wind in a day in spring
Even the pastel colors begin to dance; a tale begins

I'll immediately rush out to your side
Wait for me; I'm now running through the brilliant town

We've always looked for a fate entwined in mischief
Then, now that we've met, I'm sure that it's not just a coincidence
I want to be by your side, just like this

A light pink color flutters down, dyeing your cheeks; it'll come back, no matter how many times
I like you, ever since the heart-throbbing melody was born

We're still flower buds in the season when flowers bloom in fun
But now I have faith; even if you die, I won't let you go
I won't lose, even to a storm that blows strongly

Before the two of us were born
It has been decided that things will become like this

We've always looked for a fate entwined in mischief
Then, now that we've met, I'm sure that it's not just a coincidence
I want to be by your side forever

Sighs, if only I had a heart of a little girl,
then everything would be so pure, so innocent, so beautiful,
so perfect.

2008-12-06T14:51:00.001+08:00

"A young girl's dreams - a man's burden."

- Love Monster Chapter 35 Pg 22.

I'll blog about my OCIP tonight or early next morning (:

ANDERNESIA! SET AH!

2008-11-23T00:30:00.003+08:00

Today's farewell was ):

Poor planning and arrangements done by me.
My deepest apologies ):

I really want to thank the 24th,
even though I didn't have much memories with them,
but they did step into my life for a short period of time,
and they did teach and reminded me lessons I taught I knew.

May the spirit of serving burn within our hearts,
just like those candles.

I'll be away for awhile.
For those who know why, good for you(:

But for some strange reason,
I feel a bit afraid and uneasy.
I'll just trust in Him.

I'm starting to miss home already.

I'll be back with lots of details from my OCIP.

Goodbye for now (:

2008-11-21T20:12:00.001+08:00

"It's part of every Prince's job to give women something to dream about."
- Private Prince

Well said (:

Music from the heart,
that's when words are just not enough.

2008-11-21T16:53:00.002+08:00

Then I just laugh to myself and say,

"That's just so impossible."

And I'll close the book with a smile.

Fairytales,
why the world do you exist?

2008-11-19T16:22:00.002+08:00

HAHA sorry I know this is damn random,
and I think only Vampire Knight fans and Twilighters will understand,
but I really want to 'pen' this down.

If Stephenie Meyer's world of Vampires
and Matsuri Hino's world of Vampires
both exist in the same world,
just that they are in different countries,

I would really want to see them fight (:

LOL (x

2008-11-18T21:43:00.002+08:00

I think that's every girl's dream.
Seriously, every girl.

Deep inside their hearts, they know.

To feel protected.
To feel warm and comfortable,
no matter the temperature or weather.
To be able to close their eyes peacefully.
To be able to smile from their hearts.

It's a pity though,
that such love doesn't exist.

And even if it does,
it won't be forever.

So, how long is forever?

I was inspired by someone to put this up (:

Credits to http://xslinkstercool.deviantart.com/art/Be-Safe-54518936

2008-11-16T16:31:00.001+08:00

OMGOSH!

HINAMORI MOMO HAS COME OUT TO FIGHT!

AHHHHH!

BLEACH CHAPTER 334!

(:

2008-11-16T12:30:00.002+08:00

Song time!

Pray - Take That

Today will be a terrible day ):
My throat's burning, (No, not from blood thirst, mind you)
my braces are umcomfortable,
I can't eat my favourite food anymore,
and I got work to do ):

Sighs.
I miss my friends ):

2008-11-12T18:47:00.005+08:00

From now on, I'll be super busy with
ANDERNESIA! ORIENTATION! FAREWELL!
(Farewell's not that busy la, I really want to help more out in Orientation thought ): )

On a lighter note, I was browsing pictures on DeviantArt.
Then I started thinking about Twilight.

So, I started browsing Twilight pictures (:
And I came across rather nicer and funny art pieces!

THIS IS SO FREAKING FUNNY.
(Maybe it's funny only to me la, but whatever it is)

LOOK AT THOSE FUNNY FACES! I personally feel that Edward Cullen looks damn ugly here but it's just cartoon, so I don't really bother. And it scares me to see that Jane looks so freaking innocent when she is actually SO TERRIBLY EVIL!! Bella looks like Emily in this picture too, which is super strange. Whatever it is, I actually laughed when I saw the funny faces of the vampires and humans.

Credits to http://sammysteroid.deviantart.com/art/Twilight-82735779

Okay NEXT!
I like this picture really much even though Edward Cullen is supposedly MUCH MORE HANDSO ME THAN THIS, but the owner of this picture should be praised because this is EXACTLY WHAT I IMAGINED THAT SCENE TO BE. And Bella Swan looks sexy in this picture. But she seems a bit too tan and Edward Cullen seems a little too pale. I don't think Stephenie Meyer portrayed her vampires with such ghostly image.
Credits to http://noiry.deviantart.com/art/your-lullaby-twilight-69586001

I thought this was the nicest hand drawn picture of the Cullen Family, because not only are they so well drawn, it is SO obvious who is who! In case you can't tell, I'm pretty sure that, in clockwise motion starting from the girl with long wavy hair is Rosalie, Edward, Alice, Jasper and Emmet. Like their features are so define that you can actually tell which is the character the artist is drawing. I am super sure Edward Cullen is more good looking than this, but I really like how Rosalie was drawn, her smug beauty and arrogance is totally there! FANTASTIC (x
Credits to http://swissdutchess.deviantart.com/art/The-Cullen-Children-Twilight-67420294

Last but not least,
the only reason why I like this art piece is actually the expressions and pose of the two characters, Isabella Swan and Edward Cullen. I strongly believe Edward Cullen is suppose to look as mysterious as the picture below, but of course, more appealing and good looking, and his hair is not suppose to be so dark. And Bella is suppose to have hazel brown eyes, not blue! BUT I really like how the artist created that mysterious mixture of love, fear and mystery. It's really really nice! I really like it (:
Credits to http://itasugen.deviantart.com/art/Twilight-Edward-and-Isabella-88027818

You know, after seeing so many pictures of Edward Cullen and Isabella Swan online, and after seeing the actor Robert Pattinson and actress Kristen Stewart, I still think they don't look like the Edward Cullen and Isabella Swan in Stephenie Meyer's Twilight Saga.

But I myself can't properly visualise and picture how they SHOULD look like, so I really don't know. I saw many Robert Pattinson interviews and Twilight staff interviews, and they are so so fun to watch (:

I can't wait for the movie (:

Twilight Saga fans, check this out! A great fansite!
http://www.edwardandbella.net and http://www.hisgoldeneyes.com/

2008-11-10T22:06:00.002+08:00

I'm currently watching 1 Litre of Tears.

And I'm already crying at episode 3.

I think I'll cry at least 3 litre of tears once I finish the whole series.

Life.
It's the fear everyone has hidden deep within their hearts.

Up till now, I'm still praying that
when it's my turn to leave,
I want to make sure I'm able do three things.

One,
thank everyone I know, especially God,
for being in my life.

Two,
tell everyone I know, especially God,
how much I love them.

And three,
smile and say
goodbye.

2008-11-06T21:40:00.001+08:00

Damn shit.
What the hell's wrong with me ):

2008-11-05T15:34:00.002+08:00

Discipline! Self Control!

Just like Nekuinsaur, I'm missing it a lot ):

Spill.com rocks big time.
Check this out! Quantum of Solace Audio Review!
(Warning: Vulgarities and crude language)

Check out their website too!
http://www.spill.com

2008-11-04T01:19:00.002+08:00

OP and I&R datelines are approaching.
I'm not even confident of getting a good grade for PW ):

A whirlwind of chaos.
It's like a morbid game.

I fell in love with 'My Never' by Blue October.
It's on Twilight's soundtrack.
Fantastic emotions.

I miss those wacky crazy girls.
And my heart yearns for my Frellies.

Damn it, all those wonderful memories.

Won't you let me into your heaven?

2008-11-01T14:17:00.004+08:00

My Never - Blue October

Will you think about me,
in time?
It's never my luck,
So nevermind.
I wanna say your name,
But the pain starts
again,
It's never my luck,
So nevermind.

Chorus:
I had a dream that you where with me ,
And it wasn't my fault,
you roll me over,
flipped me over,
like a somersault.
And that doesn't happen to me
I've never been here before
I saw forever in my never,
And i stood outside her
Heaven.

Will you wait for me,
In time,
It's never my luck,
So I'll say: nevermind.
And i lost a lot of what i
never expect to ever
return
I tend to push it 'till the pushing turns from
hurting to burn,
I always take them to the place they always wanted
to go,
Then end up dancing 'round
this clown commands,
applause at a show...

Chorus:
I had a dream that you where with me ,
And it wasn't my fault,
you roll me over,
flipped me over,
like a somersault.
And that doesn't happen to me
I've never been here before
I saw forever in my never,
And i stood outside her
Heaven
heaven,
inside her heaven,
heaven

And i could only dream of you and sleep,
but i won't see sunlight again,
i can try to be with you , but some how i'll end up just losing a friend,
And i can only reach for you
relate to you,
I'm losing my friend...
Where did she go?
where?

Chorus:
I had a dream that you where with me ,
And it wasn't my fault,
you roll me over,
flipped me over,
like a somersault.
And that doesn't happen to me
I've never been here before
I saw forever in my never,
And i stood outside her
Heaven
I stood outside her heaven(3x)

Will you let me into your heaven?

_____________________________________

Overwhelmed.

Love's bittersweet sacrifice.

This is the indescribable emotion that is so strong,
strong enough to make me sleep,
forever.

[starry me]

2008-11-01T00:40:00.003+08:00

Twilight Saga fans, here's something to checkout.
1)Stephenie Meyer's interview at Breaking Dawn Concert
http://www.iclips.net/content.php?content_id=20238
http://www.iclips.net/content.php?content_id=20238

2)Twilight Saga website
http://thetwilightsaga.com

I think I won't get over this for a long time.

2008-11-01T00:22:00.003+08:00

The Twilight Saga.
By Stephenie Meyer.

No words can ever describe it's perfect-ness.

The perfect blend of adventure, mystery and romance.

I'm so getting the guidebook next year (:

2008-10-30T14:46:00.002+08:00

Feel like blogging today.

But the weirdest thing is,
I don't have much to blog about.

Sighs.

And when there are lots of interesting events,
I don't feel like blogging.

Haiyo.

Anyway, there was Mother Tongue Language (Chinese) A Levels today, and I have a BIG FEELING that I will only get a C. I'm confident of passing, but not scoring. I think I wrote out of point for the composition.

Roars, whatever, it's over for now.

But there's still the PeeDoubleEww.
Which drives nearly 90% of the J1 cohort crazy, I'm so damn sure about this.

It can be quite fun when your group is cooperative, but when datelines are nearing, everything just spins into hell.

I'm just really grateful to God that my group is still tolerable.

Though I struggle to survive everyday with my groupmates because I tend to bully the BUNNY or shout at THE EMO KIA, so it's like, I might die without knowing who killed me. It can be either the BUNNY or THE EMO KIA. Who knows?

LOL, I'm kidding (:

Why do I have a feeling I might get strangled the next time I see them in school? Hahaha xD

I want to go watch movie with my classmates today ): But apparently most of them are not free, so it was called off ): What a pity ):

I have lots of movie and manga reviews to finish!
And I have a long list of 26 things I have to complete by tomorrow.

Most importantly, I haven't started on the presents ):

2008-10-19T01:20:00.003+08:00

Oh gosh, WR and OP are just driving me peanuts.

Sighs, endure endure!
I must keep reminding myself to apply what I learned during cadet days to my everyday life, like seriously.

Where's your sense of urgency?
Is this the best you can do?
What are you waiting for? MOVE!

Damn it, I really miss those torturous days ):

I shall recap from past to present!

HANADAN FINAL!
(Oh gosh, I can't believe I haven't blogged about this!)
First and foremost, I AM SO SORRY EDLYN DEAR!
I really didn't mean to forget to bring your books!
I am so sorry! ):
I've put it RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME ALREADY, so I'll see it everyday and I will definitely return them to you! I am really really sorry my love ):
Secondly, going out with my dearest Nekuin and TYY was the best ever!
I just spent like mad and indulged like a pig. (as usual)
Ate doughnuts with Nekuin for lunch! Yumyum!
Then we chat with TYY in some chicken restaurant, took so long to decide what to eat, please la, I'm damn sure that waiter was amused by our conversation:

"Aye, what should we eat ah?"
"Don't know leh, you decide."
"Why I decide? You can choose too what."
"No la, I'm not hungry, you two decide!"
"Don't want! You choose! Hurry up!"
"Never mind, just pick any dish!"
"Then what dish you want? You want chicken?"
"All the dishes here are chicken! It's a chicken restaurant!"

We finally ordered a ONE PERSON MEAL! (Haha!)
And of course, we all shared it, and talked about HYD.
And of course, I enjoyed the movie.
Though I find is ABSOLUTELY RIDICULOUS & HILARIOUS that Makino actually PUNCHED a bear! Or whatever creature that was!
That's absurd and unrealistic!
But nonetheless, the movie plot was still romantic, sweet and funny (:
I expected the wedding to be more grand though.
And I fell in love with HYD Soundtrack.

I just LOVE movies/dramas/animes with enchanting soundtracks (:

Promotional Exams and Project Work
All I could think of was, praise the lord.
If you think this is what I deserve, I thank you Lord.
As what EnEn always says, "It's God's grace."
Yeah, no doubt about it.
I passed, miraculously.
But not everyone in my class managed to meet the promotional criteria. So I'm actually a little worried. And recently, though the exams are over, everyone's super stressed out over PW WR and OP. Dark eye rings, everyone carrying laptop bags, Microsoft Powerpoint on the screens, the Word Count ToolBar is always seen.
Roars, I really hope PW will be done with as soon as possible ):

Chinese ALevel Preparation
Please la, nothing will ever beat Crescent Girls' Chinese Intensive.
And I really mean NOTHING.
I totally miss Crescent Days.
I haven't been preparing much at all, though I do my best to finish the work given. I really hope I'm not being complacent or anything. Sighs, I really don't know. My chinese tutor is getting on my nerves recently, because I don't like it when teachers (and parents) compare. I mean, we should learn from YJ's parents, set realistic targets for every individual. I already can't stand the fact that she keeps criticising the weaker students in my class, but I have to admit she is a hardworking teacher who deserves some credit la. She really marks our work and even though her ear-piercing voice can be really irritating, we all can tell she tries her best to explain our mistakes. So I'm somehow grateful towards her (:
Oh wells, I hope I can get a good result for ALevel Chinese.
I have no intention of retaking it next year.

Computer Gaming
I'm apologetic and grateful to the guys in class.
I have no idea how to explain to them my situation, and I don't think you guys will understand it either. But please don't be so dumb to judge me because of the recent incidents. I really have no choice but to log off without prior notice.
Whatever la, not important anyway.
DOTA is fun, I dare say.
I'm just trying not to get hooked.

Students' Council
YAY! UPCOMING EVENT:
OGL INTERVIEW!
WOOTS! I'm super excited about it (:
And there will be Orientation 2009 preparation!
Which will be another exciting and tiring period of time!
Oh I just love helping out in events(:
It's one of the sole reasons why I even strived so hard to be where I am today! I just can't wait! And I really hope there will be a new dance next year! Or at least, teach the cohort a new dance.
Ah wells, it's all up to the organisers anyway, so yeah.
But I'm keeping my fingers crossed! xD
I really hope the cohort can help us brainstorm of interesting games or activities and feedback to the 25th SC! We really welcome all kinds of ideas! Please do help us!

Miscellaneous
Well, everyone's mood nowadays is either super slack or super stress. So we're all stretched apart.
My parents are talking about my university admission, which freaks me out in a way, and I'm getting really worried for my academics.
And I'm seriously considering dropping H2 Physics to H1. I'll talk to Ms Meow on Monday to decide better. I can't joke around anymore.
I'm starting to miss Crescent again, especially since I'm teaching Chemistry to YJ these few days, I hope she does well! She really puts in a lot of effort in studying!

I wish all Sec4s, especially my ex-cadets in Crescent RCY, all the best for their upcoming OLevels! Just do your really best all the way to the end okay!

Veronica and I will give you girls our full support and encouragement! Feel free to ask us or approach us for anything you are unsure of! Don't have to be so afraid of us!
(Veronica ah, are we that scary?? Haha!)
I wonder whether Veron and they will see this or not, haha, I guess not.

And before I really forget,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST MUU-CHAN AND EYC!
You two are friends which I really treasure!
So please be happy and I hope we can go cycling soon!
Please take care of yourselves okay! (:

I'm starting to miss my dear Frellies again.

I'm just so scared that there will be a time when I have no choice
but to let go.

If only time could just stop at that moment.

2008-10-15T20:18:00.003+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHH I FORGOT TO UPDATE!
LIKE TOTALLY FORGOT!

Okay don't care, I'm so gonna update later.

I plan to finish planning my study schedule and finish up WR.

Roars, I really want to be a dinosaur for a while ):

2008-10-12T17:26:00.003+08:00

I'm so sorry, I'll upload in greater detail tonight,
or even tomorrow morning.

Because right now,
after reading someone's blog
and after thinking and reminiscing about so many things,

I just feel like crying.

Tears of happiness and joy, I would say.

I think that's what all of us are afraid of.

Changes.

Thank you so much.

I love all of you so much till my heart hurts so bad.

There were countless times when I re approached myself,
questioning myself whether I made the correct decision.
But now, I just laugh about it.
How silly I was to think that I made a wrong decision.

To be able to feel such a strong emotion,
I am truly grateful.

Now I think I dare say that,
my seventeen years on this world has not gone to waste.

I will never let our friendship go.

2008-10-06T00:47:00.002+08:00

You should know me better.

I mean, come on.
Living with me for 17 over years?
Every day you claim to know exactly what's going through my head.
And yet,

AND YET,
you can still say such things.

What's the matter?
You expect me to explain every single bit of my character to you?

Dream on,
I just can't be bothered anymore.

I gradually not being bothered by what you think of me,
I know that for sure because I've nearly mastered the skill of blocking out external voices and I feel less frustrated whenever you hurl criticisms at me.
And I realise I can control my mouth better than before.
I'm arguing less, I just give standard answers.

Sometimes,
I'm just somewhat disappointed that
my friends know me better than you do.

Oh, no more mood to blog.

I need to blog about that movie outing, pw stuff, F1 racing etc.

I still have OP slides and chinese and physics to do.

I'm ashamed.

2008-10-03T20:52:00.002+08:00

Wait wait.
I need to finish my review on 'Penelope' and 'No Reservations' first,
AND I plan to finish half of my chinese homework today.

So before I blog about the wonderful outing I had with Nekuin and TYY,
and before I blog about anything else,

here's something for Hana Yori Dango fans.

My Chinese teacher said I did very badly for Chinese Promos.
Which is a bad sign because I'm depending on that to pass Promos.

I'll get what I deserve, so we'll see what happens next.

The flavour of life.

2008-10-01T00:03:00.002+08:00

Recently, my emotions went to the EXTREMES.

At first, I was SUPER SAD to hear that Hanadan will be screening for the very last time in the theatres THIS WEDNESDAY (Technically, today), since I haven't watched it, I was super worried I can't catch it on time.

Then, I was SUPER HAPPY to hear that Farhani and Nekuin can watch with me!

BUT, I became SUPER SAD again because we couldn't find a timing to watch Hanadan together.

However, TYY sms to tell me that she can watch with us! So I became SUPER HAPPY again because we could find a time slot at 2pm! (Though I really feel bad for dear Farhani ): )

BUT STUPID ME, I FORGOT THAT I WAS LOOKING AT A 24 HOUR FORMAT, so it wasn't the 2pm slot I saw, but the 2am one! So I WAS SO SAD THAT WE STILL CANNOT WATCH HANADAN.

THEN THEN THEN,
dearest Nekuin say she is free at 4pm, SO WE CAN ALL WATCH THE 4PM SLOT!

So, in conclusion,

I AM NOW VERY HAPPY AND EXCITED (:

Though I really wish to meet up with the whole gang of girlfriends again to do something wacky or crazy! I miss Farhani, Edlyn, Muu, SQ and a whole lot of others!

So, YAY! xD

I'm going to do a little bit of chinese now!

I'm so happy (:

2008-09-28T21:08:00.007+08:00

Okay pictures pictures! (:

Cinderella III - A Twist in Time DVD Cover
http://www.freecovers.net/view/1/f8e7556831b4e43eb1e0e19e555635d5/Cinderella_3_A_Twist_In_Time_Custom__PAL-back.html

The Little Mermaid - Broadway Musical

http://images.google.com.sg/imgres?imgurl=http://www.imyspacegraphics.com/images/the-little-mermaid/little-mermaid.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.imyspacegraphics.com/the-little-mermaid-myspace-graphics.php&h=402&w=324&sz=36&hl=en&start=50&um=1&usg=__BGrqsOY_DVm04IdZIYhr7cTdPQg=&tbnid=VYQoZHMkaBBn1M:&tbnh=124&tbnw=100&prev=/images%3Fq%3Dariel%2Bthe%2Blittle%2Bmermaid%26start%3D36%26ndsp%3D18%26um%3D1%26hl%3Den%26client%3Dfirefox-a%26rls%3Dorg.mozilla:en-US:official%26hs%3DOFw%26sa%3DN

Princess Aurora,
otherwise known as Sleeping Beauty or Briar Rose

http://images.google.com.sg/imgres?imgurl=http://images1.fanpop.com/images/image_uploads/Aurora-disney-princess-989725_681_451.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.fanpop.com/spots/disney-princess/images/989725&h=451&w=681&sz=61&hl=en&start=8&um=1&usg=__MjktDtH7Xrmn32S_zdrE2eW582I=&tbnid=F5PqaEVsdVnMzM:&tbnh=92&tbnw=139&prev=/images%3Fq%3D%2527Disney%2BPrincess%2BAurora%2527%26um%3D1%26hl%3Den%26client%3Dfirefox-a%26rls%3Dorg.mozilla:en-US:official%26sa%3DG

I think this is SUPER FUNNY.
http://www.fanpop.com/spots/disney-princess/images/1151838

And guess what my desktop picture is now?

HANA YORI DANGO FINAL (HANDAN) !!!
http://www.hanadan-final.jp/index.html

It's about time to do work again ):

There's a better life that's waiting,
past the mountains I must climb.
I will take my chance on love,
to get my once upon a time.
Oh, I want so much more, so much more,
than a Dream.

-Cinderella from Walt Disney's Cinderella III,
from the song "More than a Dream"

2008-09-28T04:32:00.002+08:00

I have concluded that Walt Disney's 'The Little Mermaid' and 'Cinderella' Trilogies are similar.

The first movie has FANTASTIC music and story line.
The second movie is NOT TOO BAD.
And the last movie's story line is just...
THE PERFECT ENDING.

10/10. 5 stars upon 5. Full marks.

Or in Spill.com's way of grading it,
"Better than sex!"
(Damn crude descriptive, I know.
But I can't think of any phrase to describe it's perfectness)

Oh gosh, I wonder what would happen if I fell in love with music.

Maybe I already have.

Just reviewed "Mamma Mia!" The movie on my review blog.
Click here to view!

I don't know when.
I don't know how.
But I know something's starting right now.
Watch and you'll see,
Someday I'll be,
Part of your world.

- Princess Ariel, from Disney's "The Little Mermaid"
from the song "Part of your World"

2008-09-27T00:11:00.001+08:00

I'll forever be mesmerised.

The melodious singing,
the bright swirling colours,
the life in each song.

Disney Classics <3

The power of dreams,
and the power of love (:

Nothing can ever be more perfect.

Jodi Benson, you rock!

2008-09-26T15:24:00.003+08:00

Promotional Exams are over.

Confidence level in passing Promos: 0%
Confidence level in failing Promos: 100%

I just hope I'm dreaming.
But I can't continue living in self denial all the time,
can I?

Time for Project Work and gifts making (:

And I'm so looking forward to...
Disney's Platinum Edition of Sleeping Beauty!
Released on 7 October 2008!

YAY (:

I want to meet up with my beloved girlfriends!

And I want to watch HANA YORI DANGO FINAL (HANADAN) <3

Shoots, there's Chinese Alevels coming up :/

Whatever, I'm still in love with Disney Animations(:

Disney Voice Actors/ Actresses

2008-09-22T14:48:00.003+08:00

Singing Voice Actors/ Actresses

Jodi Benson:
- Princess Ariel in the Disney Trilogy "The Little Mermaid"
- Thumbelina in "Thumbelina"

Liz Callaway
- Princess Jasmine in Disney's "Return of Jafar" & "Aladdin and the King of Theives"
- Kiara in Disney's "The Lion King II: Simba's Pride"
- Princess Odette in "The Swan Princess"
- Anastasia in "Anastasia"

Lea Salonga-Chien:
- Princess Jasmine in Disney's "Aladdin"
- Fa Mulan in Disney's "Mulan" & "Mulan II"

Oh gosh, the LOVES (:

I think I have the mood to study Econs now (:

2008-09-21T16:06:00.001+08:00

Haven't update for a long time (:

Promotional Exams are here.

Lord will give me what I deserve.

Here's something to cheer myself up (:

I'm a huge Disney fan afterall (:

a whole new world aladdin -

Gambette minna-san.

2008-09-11T03:32:00.002+08:00

Bleach Movie 2: Diamond Dust Rebellion

Action packed and fighting scenes rating: 10/10

Special effects and animations rating: 10/10

Characters rating: 10/10

Overall rating: 10/10.

One hell of a movie. The wait was worth it (:

2008-09-09T22:29:00.004+08:00

Okay I know I'm not supposed to be here, but I was blog hopping and I came across a fellow Crescentian's blog, Pearlyn! The very girl who called me 'Kangaroo'.

I read one of her post which I felt was worth reading,
so I'm posting it here so that more people can read it (:

Think about it, Life's so much more.

From Pearlyn's blog at http://precisepolaroids.wordpress.com/

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn’t, or
Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.
Don’t be afraid to tell someone you love them.
If you do, they might break your heart…if you don’t, you might break theirs.

Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn’t.
You can’t tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own……..when you least suspect it, or even when you don’t want it to.
Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much…for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.
Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?
We tell lies when we are afraid… afraid of what we
don’t know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.
But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

Don’t be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?
What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don’t care anymore)
What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn’t have them?

What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?

People live, but people die. I want to tell you that
you are a friend.
If you died tomorrow (God Forbid)
you would be in my heart.
Would I be in yours?

________________________________________________

I need to be more disciplined.
Lord, please take my hand.

2008-09-08T23:24:00.002+08:00

AHHHH!

DIAMOND DUST REBELLION

IT'S FINALLY OUT!!!

(Thanks Nekuin for the reminder xD love you lots lots lots <3)

Oh gosh, I'm so excited (:
Bleach's the LOVE.

Argh shucks, I have unfinished homework and revision :/

2008-09-07T23:55:00.003+08:00

I'm updating now because of the link I clicked on Nekuin's livejournal.

What your Name means
(http://www.paulsadowski.com/Numbers.asp)

You entered: Monica

There are 6 letters in your name.
Those 6 letters total to 28
There are 3 vowels and 3 consonants in your name.

What your first name means:

(HAHA now I can tell WX and YX what my name means (: )

Spanish	Female	Advisor.
Latin	Female	To advise. Counselor.
Greek	Female	Alone. Advisor.
English	Female	Variant of Mona.

Your number is: 1

The characteristics of #1 are: Initiating action, pioneering, leading, independent, attaining, individual.

The expression or destiny for #1:
A number 1 Expression denotes the skilled executive with keen administrative capabilities. You must develop the capacity to be a fine leader, sales executive, or promoter. You have the tools to become an original person with a creative approach to problem solving, and a penchant for initiating action. Someone may have to follow behind you to handle the details, but you know how to get things going and make things happen. You have a good mind and the ability to use it for your advancement. Because of these factors, you have much potential for achievement and financial rewards. Frequently, this expression belongs to one running a business or striving to achieve a level of accomplishment on ones talents and efforts. You have little need for much supervision, preferring to act on your own with little restraint. You are both ambitious and determined. Self-confident and self-reliant must be yours, as you develop a strong unyielding will and the courage of your convictions.

Although you fear loneliness, you want to be left alone. (<-- When I saw this sentence, I was like, "Okay I totally need to copy and paste this on my blog.)You fear routine and being in a rut. You often jump the gun because you are afraid of being left behind.

The negative attributes of the 1 Expression are egotism and a self-centered approach to life. This is an aggressive number and if it is over-emphasized it is very hard to live with. You do not have to be overly aggressive to fulfill your destiny. The 1 has a natural instinct to dominate and to be the boss; adhering to the concept of being number One. Again, you do not have to dominate and destroy in order to lead and manage. (This is very true as well)

Your Soul Urge number is: 7

A Soul Urge number of 7 means:
With a number 7 Soul Urge you are very fond of reading, and retreating to periods of being alone and away from the disruptions of the outer world. You like to dream and develop you idealistic understandings, to study and analyze, to gain knowledge and wisdom. You may be too laid back and withdrawn to really succeed in the business world, and you will be much more comfortable in circumstances that are tolerant of your reserve, your analytical approach, and your desire to use your mind rather than your physical being.

You are very timid around people that you don't know very well, so much so at times that casual conversation and social situations can be strained. You tend to repress your emotions to the extend that some people have a good bit of difficult understanding you. You tend to be very selective with friends and you don't easily adapt to new environments or to new people very quickly.

The negative traits of the 7 include becoming too much the introvert and isolated from others.

Your Inner Dream number is: 3

An Inner Dream number of 3 means: (DAMN FREAKING TRUE)
You dream of artistic expression; writing, painting, music. You would seek to more freely express your inner feeling and obtain more enjoyment from life. You also dream of being more popular, likable, and appreciated.

Go check it out!

I'm so dead for Promos.

2008-09-03T20:52:00.002+08:00

Service Learning with Crystal Tots Child Care Centre for the last two days can be described in 3 simple words:

FUN yet TIRING.

The children are really damn cute.

And there's still the Zoo Trip with them tomorrow (:

I really hope it doesn't rain!

I'll upload photos the next time I blog about SL (:

I think all the effort was worth it (:

Though it's really exhausting for all of us, but yeah, I dare say most of us had fun.
I bet that Professor Chiong must be cursing me now.
Whatever la you moron. (Directed at that professor chiong)

AND AND AND.
Kare First Love and Akuma De Sourou
are LOVES.

No matter how many times I reread them, they are still
SO FREAKING GOOD.

Oh the loves the loves <3

I'm so going to review them once I'm free.

I better focus back on my studies now.

MY GOAL BEFORE I SLEEP IS:
1) Finish GP Comprehension
2) Finish Arenes Tutorial (I keep getting stuck at questions!)
3) Do at least half the AJC Math Promo 2007 paper

I don't want to waste 366 days.

2008-09-02T01:21:00.003+08:00

It's just so silly.

That girl's in love with love itself.

I think it's super frustrating.

The constant want and desire to completely capture life's deepest secrets.
And yet, when you think you know it all,
you find yourself being amazed by it's greatness.

How ironical.

Haha, I guess that's just life.

2008-08-24T03:31:00.004+08:00

Okay, here we are! As promised, a detailed update about the recent happenings, in random order. LOL it's because of my STM, I kind of forgot which events came before the others, so yeah anyway.

BeiJing Olympics 2008
Damn freaking impressive and grand opening.
I mean, it was so grand and interesting that I actually had to recall whether the 2004 Olympics in Athens was also that grand! A job well done China! Though I would be even happier if even more effort would be put in to help the less fortunate around the world :/ Sighs, the reality of life.

And not to forget,
CONGRATULATIONS TEAM SINGAPORE !
Though I have to admit that the Table Tennis Women's Team aren't truly Singaporean, but they ARE Singaporean after all, no matter when they were granted their citizenship or where they were originally born in. I read the forums in the Straits Times recently and I have to agree with one particular article called "Let's learn from Canada". The article was talking about how some Singaporeans shouldn't be too concern whether the Table Tennis Women's Team members are from Singapore or not and we should just be very very proud and elated for their tremendous achievement in this year's Olympics.

For goodness sake, they've gotten us a SILVER! They fought the hardest for Singapore! I think we should be very grateful already! I really hope the Welcome Back Party that was arranged for all the Singaporeans who fought in the Olympics this year will be a spectacular party (:

Oh oh! And when the Table Tennis matches was shown during school hours, A WHOLE LOT OF AJCIANS WOULD CROWD AROUND THE TV SCREENS IN AJ. I was really glad to see the Singapore Spirit within us (: It is at such points in my life in AJ that I was proud to be an AJcian. Please la, I even took photos of such scenes to prove how much AJcians support Team Singapore (: I'll upload those photos another time (:

Bleach
OH LOVE LOVE LOVE. Yes! I've finally caught up on Bleach manga, I would like to stress the word, MANGA, not anime. And as always, Bleach never fails to impress(: Though I still can't really stand (or sit down) the long winded battles, but the fighting scenes are still so filled with energy and surprises! All the way Kubo Tite!

AND for some strange reason, I'm back to falling in the love with the cute and rather impossible couple pairing of Hitsugaya Toushirou and Hinamori Momo. Seriously, that 10th Division Captain is damn cool (x

Project Work & Service Learning
Still driving me half insane, and now I'm worried about it's success ):
Even though we're all trying our best to make this work, I really don't know what will happen on those 3 days ): I feel terribly sorry towards TwentyFour that we seem rather unorganised and all that ): Sighs, I really hope it works out ):

WR and EOM are mind-wreaking. Need I say more?

Studies and Promos
Oh the dreaded word nowadays, PROMOS. I'm thinking about the word nearly 24 hours a day. Seriously, even though I feel that I'm putting in slightly more effort in revision and doing my work constantly, I don't think it's enough to pull me through Promos. And I've started to think about other education alternatives besides JC, because I think it'll be a waste of time continuing Junior College if I were to fail Promos. But I promise I will really try hard to study, even though I really hate to study ):

Oh, and I seriously regret thinking that Ms Kat is a boring teacher before we even got to know her. Ms Kat is really a fantastic Econs teacher, thank goodness for her!

School life & Council
A huge bore, as usual. There are more and more topics which I fail to understand and grasps, which seriously worries me for some of those topics will be tested during Promos. I'm getting a little complacent for my GP because I have no freaking idea that I can be pretty good in Comprehension at times. (Like what the hell? I've never been good at the English Language and I can actually score pretty well for Paper 2 of GP?? Even I'm surprised!) I hope this keeps up though, so that I have one less worry for Promos ):

Even though now I'm a full fledged Councillor of the 25th SC AJC, I have no intention to talk about Council right now because it's like -

Yeah whatever, just go ahead and sue me.

Miscellaneous
Well, err, I've been losing my patience more easily, especially when it comes to the topic relating to studies and promos, because I'm worried enough for it already, so I don't need others to remind me how important it is. I'll seriously snap.

And to admit, the main reason why I haven't been blogging recently is because, apart from the many interesting events that happened, there were actually more unhappy incidents that I bumped into, and I did the most unexpected thing in school. I shouldn't have stand up before completely recovering and calming myself down. This is the fourth time in my 17 years of life so far that such stupid incident occurred, and I hope it'll be the last.

There are reasons why I behave like this and why my character's a little tom-boyish. Don't just assume, thinking you know everything. And no, I'm not only referring to you.

Sighs. Who wouldn't want to run away into the dark, cold night?

Yes yes, thank goodness for fairy tales (:

Goodnight. And Happy Birthday 2408.

2008-08-21T20:48:00.002+08:00

"And if you’d allow me to, I’d like to take it with you."

-Quoted from a Hitsugaya & Hinamori FanFiction,
by Imaginator in 'Thirty Kisses" Chapter 7.

Damn sweet.

Thank goodness for fairytales.
Otherwise, I would have committed suicide now.

Bleach manga is still freaking cool.

Look out for more detailed updates this weekend (:

2008-08-14T17:42:00.002+08:00

Yeah I know, I haven't updated in a while (:

I'll update by 24th Aug (2408's class birthday), together with a new blogskin from Blogskins.com.
And this is a promise I intend to keep (x

I know I'm not a trustworthy person, but I really can't update now.

It's like a spiral down into darkness.
I'm just running away.

GP Compo Writing is intolerable.

Yesterday, I was praised by my Chinese teacher FOR THE VERY VERY FIRST TIME.
Even I was taken by surprised.

In the night of a full moon, I slipped into the jet black shadows.
Just let me fade away.

2008-07-21T20:47:00.002+08:00

I forgot what happened this week.

Sighs, anyway, I'll update once I remember.

Firstly,
I'm really worried for my Promos.
That's one thing I have to admit.

Secondly,
I changed blogskin for my Review Blog.
I'm pretty happy with the progress (:
Considering the fact that I enjoy commenting on the lovelies I've watched or read.
Click here if you wish to take a look.

Thirdly,
I got tons of work not done,
and I'm getting hungry more often.

And lastly,
I don't feel like going to school ):

Let's stay together, always.

2008-07-17T22:36:00.003+08:00

EOM EOM!

AHHH AHHH!

ECONS TEST ECONS TEST!

AHHH AHHH!

TUTORIALS TUTORIALS!

AHHH AHHH!

PHYSICS SPA PHYSICS SPA!

AHHH AHHH!

GETTING FATTER GETTING FATTER!

AHHH AHHH!

SERVICE-LEARNING SERVICE-LEARNING!

AHHH AHHH!

Okay, lots of screaming for this post.
But that's what I really feel right now.

I'm so stuck for EOM.
And PW and SL are driving me half insane.
At least I kind of enjoy doing such projects.
What I hate most is to juggle these projects AND studies together.

I rather forgo my studies and take up every single project work and ADHOC available. I think I will be even happier if I get to choose the ADHOCs and Projects of my choice (:

I feel like changing blogskin.

Promos is just 8 weeks away.
I really don't want to retain ):

AHHH! AHHH! AHHH!

2008-07-15T21:45:00.002+08:00

It tugs at my heart so strongly,

I was so afraid I would lose control.

I can't do such a thing.
I need to remain quiet and do as I'm told.
I have to control my emotions.

I must not do such a thing.
I have to remain quiet and do as I'm told.
I need to control my emotions.

I won't do such a thing.
I will remain quiet and do as I'm told.
I will control my emotions.

Yes, I was really afraid.

2008-07-13T21:37:00.002+08:00

Before I turn in, I shall present to you...

Class TwentyFour Oh-Eight.

Posted this picture as I was inspired by the Royal Woof Woff's blog.

Just when I took the courage to do what I really wanted to,

it started to rain.

And the most ironical thing is,
I don't feel anything at all.

Rain, rain, go away.
Come again another day.
I just want a sunny day.
Rain, rain, go away.

2008-07-12T00:34:00.003+08:00

I'm starting to worry.

Is there really a World Cosplay Summit tomorrow at Plaza Singapura??

Or did we already miss the Cosfest that happened last weekend?

Shoots la, I should have went last weekend ):

I saw some photos on last weekend's Cosfest that I found from someone's blog.
It looks damn fun la. Someone cosplayed as Suzumiya Haruhi! And she looks not bad (:
Click here to view!

Damn, I should have went.

Stupid EOM.

I still don't get Economies of Scale.
And I also don't get anything of Chemistry and Physics.

Sighs, I think I made a wrong choice going to JC.

Stupid stupid stupid.

2008-07-09T20:29:00.000+08:00

There are so many things in my head now.

And I can only use one word to describe it.

Disgusted.

Really, damn disgusted.

I have no rights to say it, but don't you dare get cocky.

What the hell, I'm getting riled up again.

2008-07-05T12:09:00.002+08:00

This week is the worst week of my life since 1 January 2008 to 5 July 2008.

However, thanks to the lighthearted event that happened in the Auditorium during Math Lecture, I finally could laughed out loud for a while.

As quoted from Chiongster's blog, (Base on Chiongter's point of view):

I was sitting infront of projector room centre, and I called out to birdsound expert clinton with the "wooo wheee" bird sound quite loudly lol (sounds wrong, but it is just for fun)

lecturer ears picked it up**

clinton replied me with the same bird whistle

lecturer scanning audi, haven say a word ... ***

then out of the bloody blue, some1 from the left seats of the audi do a DAMN REAL REPLY, same bird call, pretty loud, u will really tink it is a bird, me monica and jeryl was so shocked.

lecturer stared at left seats till eye wanna pop out haha. ****

lecturer says:
"got birds escape from bird park izzit?" "so many bird sounds, you guys pls be serious during lecture and stop playing around... full of NONSEN"S"E " (yes she said non-SENSE)

every1 laughing like mad liao ...

then final k.o.
"and pls switch off yr handphones dun be rude"

LOL SHE TINKS IT IS FROM HANDPHONES LMAO. me n the whole 24/08 literally laughed thier ass offf. Got one guy from the neighbouring class staring at me in disbelief, I tink he also wanna learn the bird call.

I think Chiongster described it so well I couldn't stop laughing again when I read his blog entry.

It was just super funny.
I think one can only understand how funny it is if you're in 2408.

We twentyfours are just complete jokers la. LOL.

Service Learning and Project Work are seriously driving me insane.

But yeah, I'll hang on.

My determination to study and work hard has increased.
I just hope this determination will not die before Promos.

All I'm waiting for is the two other subjects getting a Ungraded,
then I know what I should be doing already.

There's OCIP Indonesia meeting on Youth Day (:
I'm getting really excited (:

I wonder how my dear fellow 25th elects who are running for EXCO are feeling. They just had their interview this morning. I wonder how Sopy did.

Somehow deep inside, I feel a little happy(:

Perhaps Life's getting better after all.

2008-07-01T19:43:00.002+08:00

That's totally ridiculous.

Vampire Knight Anime has a Season Two?
Like for goodness sake, Vampire Knight MANGA is still ONGOING with NO SEASONS.
Why the world must they stop Vampire Knight Anime at Episode 13 for Season One?

Please la, it hasn't even reached the climax and the most exciting part of the Manga.

Yeah, I'm now damn sure the Manga's going to be better than the Anime.

Anyway, lots of things happened recently.

But to tell you the truth, my mind's filled with the problems I'm facing for SL cum Pilot Project and about tomorrow's Alevel Chinese Oral that I feel so damn unprepared.

So I don't have any mood to blog. I'm just blogging to update this place.

Mid Years is definitely screwed.

I finally met some of my dear dear squadmates on Thursday, which made me really happy(:

The BBQ at my condo for 2408's class outing cum MCYC's farewell was smoking good.

I finally bought a 250 GB HDD on Sunday and Norton AntiVirus for my Laptop.

Yesterday (Monday) was crap.

And today's just as bad.

All I know now is that,
tomorrow's going to be worse.

CHEN CUI PING LAO SHI.
You have no idea how much I miss you now.
I just love CCP.

I'm really starting to detest my current chinese teacher, no offense, but I really feel she shouldn't have personal attacks on students. And no, she didn't attack me but my helpless classmates.

I wonder when the hell can I start to respect her.

I want to, I'm trying to, but I just can't. She just keeps doing things that she shouldn't be doing. What the hell, worse of all, her scolding is exactly the same style as -

I love talking to my dearest friends on the phone whenever I need comfort(:

And Julie Garwood's a great romance novelist.

Damn, I'm missing my dear friends all over again ):

2008-06-24T23:21:00.002+08:00

This is the first time I felt so scared for my academics.

Okay, Olevels was scary.
But everyone was rather scared too.

This time's different.

This time, I realise I really don't understand any concept at all, and everyone around me is saying things like, "Oh my gosh oh my gosh I'm going to fail, sure fail one, no hope one la, I sure will retain one, sure die sure die" and all those nonsense. AND THE FUNNIEST THING IS, they can still answer my questions regarding that subject.

LOL like WOW. You're going to retain because you know how to answer my questions?

Then I really wonder what's going to happen to me.

This is very first time, so far in my entire life of schooling,
that I feel that I really cannot cope with my studies at all.

No no, I'm dead serious.
I'm not saying this because I feel that I cannot make it.

I really don't understand a thing.

No, please do not say things like, 'Aiya, you sure can pass one la' or whatever crap.

Please, don't say that.
I am already traumatised by today's Chemistry paper.
I studied what I could, and understood what I studied.

And when similar questions came out, I just stare at it, wondering what chapter it is testing me on. Like what the - am I doing.

And now for Math, I have practiced quite a bit on it during the June "Holidays", so I thought that I should be able to apply those concepts that I understand onto the Revision Exercises.

But I fail to notice something, I thought.

I'm stuck on the same Revision Exercise for the last 5 hours and I still cannot complete it, AND those questions I "completed" were either half empty or wrong answers.

Now I seriously think whatever I learned during my Secondary School years were really super easy. I can still remember myself complaining how difficult Relative Velocity and Organic Chemistry was back in Sec3 and Sec 4.

Bullshit la, Alevel syllabus is like a million times worse.

How am I suppose to enjoy myself when I go back to Crescent on Thursday and when I go out with my dearest friends ):

However, I'm somehow very grateful (:

Thank you Lord, I think this will wake me up from now on.

2008-06-21T00:44:00.002+08:00

I think this video clip is rather freaky.

WARNING! This video clip contains religious material. This video clip is just base on someone else's opinion on Christianity. I am a Christian myself, so I am not uploading this video to destroy the name of Christianity or offend any fellow Christians. My view is more like, I stay firm in my believes no matter what other people say. There is no need for any religious uproar or conflict on this issue, it's just someone else's different opinion. If you have faith in what you believe, you should not be affected by this video.

Please watch this video with maturity.

This video reminds me of a phrase I came across sometime back.

"It shakes your faith, right where you stand."

Yeah, it's scary alright.

2008-06-17T12:18:00.002+08:00

About time to put up another song (:

Seasons of Love - From the musical "RENT"

Seasons of Love [From Rent] - Cast of Rent

A year is just five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes.

Can you believe how short it is?

"All love that has not friendship for its base, is like a mansion built upon sand."
- Ella Wheeler Wilcox (O Magazine, Feb 2004)

2008-06-16T23:58:00.001+08:00

Oh oh oh!
I shall uploads those photos and pictures I've been wanting to upload for a long time!

Taken during Resilience Workshop(: HELLO PANDA <3

Given by my dearest KaJie (Erika) ! I love UG far longer than forever(: And of course, not forgetting my dearest frellies and 4Goners <3

Doughnuts! Icing! Chocolate! Cream! Sinful yet simply delightful (x

Ate this during dinner recently. Yes yes, I know I've gotten fat and put on weight, don't have to keep reminding me (:

My dear dear friends (: Ice skating with them was damn hilarious! I just can't help but smile whenever I see this photo <3

And this drawing was drawn by my dearest Muu-Chan after O Level Chinese Oral Exam in one of the air con rooms on the 3rd Floor with CCP Lao Shi! Muumuu's famous Mangosteen(:

And guess what's my desktop picture?

Hehe, Disney's the love ;D

And now I present to you... KANSA!

Not prepared for MidYears at all.

Guilty as charged.

2008-06-16T00:19:00.002+08:00

I just checked the Dashboard wondering why my previous post wasn't up :/
It was saved to drafts :/ Sighs, the wonders of technology.

Anyway,

I AM STILL SLACKING.

But the weirdest thing is that, I feel HAPPY.

Like seriously, happy (:
No sarcasm here whatsoever.

And TYY rocks because she found lots of Disney CDs in China and they are ORIGINAL VERSIONS, NOT PIRATED(: I feel like flying there right now!

YAY (;

I'm a little wacky here because I'm starting to panic about MYEs and I still have the 'heck-care' attitude.

PW is wearing me out :/

The interview that day with the doctors and nurse was really an eye-opener. The nurse was really friendly and funny though. Sighs, I really hope we can find an organisation to work with for out Pilot project cum SL :/ I haven't started on EOM and WR.

Crap, this sucks.

I feel like travelling overseas suddenly.

I want to just play all day, and make presents all day.

My presents are still in the planning process.

I still owe 4 people presents.
No, I haven't forgotten your birthdays.

OH! Enchanted was fantastic ;D
It's the first movie which tried to prove that Fairy tales can be brought into real life.
Giselle is just too cute (x

This is the song stuck in my brain right now:

Far longer than Forever - 'The Swan Princess'
Sung by: Liz Callaway & Howard McGillin

Odette:
If I could break this spell
I'd run to him today
and somehow I know he's on his way to me
Derek, you and I were meant to be

Far longer than forever
I'll hold you in my heart
It's almost like you're here with me
Although we're far apart

Derek:
Far longer than forever
As constant as a star
I close my eyes
and I am where you are

Odette:
Sure as the dawn brings the sunrise
We've an unshakable bond

Derek:
Destined to last for a lifetime
and beyond

Far longer than forever (Far longer than forever)
I swear that I'll be true (I swear that I'll be true)
I've made an everlasting vow
To find a way to you

Both:
Far longer than forever
Like no love ever known
and with your love
I'll never be alone

Odette:
Far longer than forever

Derek:
Much stronger than forever

Odette:
and with your love
I'll never be alone

Damn, I'm sinking into Fairy tales again.

Somebody save me.

2008-06-09T23:52:00.005+08:00

I can't help it.

My love for Disney Classics and Cartoons <3>

Disclaimer: The following pictures are from http://www.disneygraphic.splinder.com. To my dearest friends who reads my blog, please DO NOT STEAL THEM, if you want to use their pictures, please acknowledge them like what I'm doing! Because as a Disney fan, my heart aches when I see other fellow Disney fans' works being stolen by others.

I'll be back in 3 to 4 hours.
I have so much to tell you guys(:

2008-06-09T04:15:00.002+08:00

Okay people! I’m back(:

Yes I know it’s slightly more than 4 hours. But I really couldn’t pull myself away from researching about all the Disney DVDs and CDs I’m suppose to collect.

Sheesh, why are all my hobbies so money-consuming :/

Let me tell you one of my experiences.

I went into a Video shop where they sell Disney Classics. (No I’m not going to tell you what’s the shop’s name, otherwise they might sue me :/) I was looking high and low (Literally, because the shelves were very tall and some of the CDs are scattered all about) for the Disney movies I’m finding. Then, I came across one of the movies I was looking for. So I was so excited that I flipped it around to check the price. It states $29.90. I was like O.O that’s a little expensive for a not so popular Disney Classic. So I decided to look for the other movies. The next movie I found cost $39.90, THEN I WAS LIKE O.O WHY IS IT GETTING MORE AND MORE EXPENSIVE. THEN THEN! I found one of the movies that I always wanted to collect. I WAS SO HAPPY LA. BUT THEN HOR. THE PRICE WAS $59.90. I TOTALLY SAID OUT LOUD: “WHATTT???” Then the shop assistant came over to me and asked whether I needed her assistance. Thank goodness I was the only customer in that shop at that time.

See la, how expensive Disney Classics and Animations are :/

Collecting Manga is also another expensive hobby of mine.

Sighs, money money money.

I have a total of 50 Disney Classics to collect, and now I’ve already bought 14 out of 50(:

Recently, I just bought ‘101 Dalmatians Platinum Edition DVD’ and just reserved ‘Lady and the Tramp Platinum Edition DVD’ and ‘The Aristocats Special Edition’. AND AND AND ‘Sleeping Beauty Platinum Editon DVD’ is soon to be released on 7 October 2008! AHHHHH (: It’s a pity I have to wait another 5-8 more years for ‘Snow white and the Seven Dwarfs’ and’ Beauty and the Beast’ Platinum Editions to be released again :/

And so, now I need to think of a way how to find money to pay for the two reserved items and now I’m left with 5 dollars to survive through 1 week. AND CLASS FUND STILL OWES ME 20 BUCKS!

And to all those who still doesn’t know about my ‘The Dango’ blog, click here(:

So now, we shall… REWIND.

Alpha-Bravo Camp Delta Experience 2008 (AB camp)

Six days and five night camp in AJC and Labrador Adventure Centre. Another unforgettable experience(: I won’t go into too many details because frankly saying, I think most of it is a repetition of Elects’ Camp 2008. I’m just glad I made new friends (the girls are super hyper and the guys are super funny) and my group had such nice and fun instructors like Instructor Sheryl, Jing Poh and Zhong Hao! GO KANSA!

High Elements

Okay seriously, IT WAS RATHER FUN AND SCARY! Because of the rain ): my group only manage to do the Challenge pole. I think the scariest part of that very last part when we have to stand on the top of the pole. It’s like, you have to look down (and realise how high up you are from the ground) and then balance yourself on the small standing area of the pole. DAMN SCARY, but very exciting(: I took rather long to pull myself up there! Haha. And everyone started shivering when we stood on the pole! So the pole was like ‘trembling’ whenever someone was up there. It was a pity I didn’t manage to grab the suspended horizontal bar, even though I tried to jump as far as possible. And please la, the guys still said it was very easy to reach. Sheesh, what utter nonsense. I did some belaying as well, since I had previous experience from OBS. Overall, I really think we should have more time to do the rest of the high elements :/

Wet Weather Games

HAHAHA OUR GROUP WON! It was so funny la! I still remember myself saying that Jeryl’s method won’t work because balancing a marble on the tip of a straw seems impossible. But hey, I learnt that nothing was impossible, and in the end that method was the method which made us win(: LOL we kind of had fun, even though I prefer doing High elements.

Moehawk walk

I think our group owned this activity(: Instructor Willy said we set the record of 7 minutes and IDK how many seconds! Woots! Well, it’s partly because Andy knew the technique already so everyone was just trying to teach everyone else the technique of completing the walk at the fastest time possible. It was really quite fun(: I think Kansa is really a bunch of efficient and wacky and outspoken people. Yeah! ;D

Balancing Board

I think this is the most challenging, yet most team-bonding activity throughout the entire camp. I can still remember the hugging and pulling of each other on the board, and the unstoppable giggling and laughter, and the shrieks and screams from the girls. SUPER FUN. It’s really not as easy as it looks! And we completed the task unconsciously! Haha, I will never forget this activity!

Workshops
Well, why am I not surprise there will be workshops in this camp :/ I mean, I think it’s really difficult to stay awake in the workshops when all of us are so drained out already. But yeah, I understand that the instructors and organizers are even more tired than us participants(I have been in their positions before, right Frellies?), so I think a lot of us try our best to stay awake during the workshops. Really, we do. And yes, I somehow learn a bit through those workshops, so it was somehow beneficial (:

Bath time & Washing up time.

WORST TIME IN THE ENTIRE CAMP. Seriously, I don’t think we had enough time to bath properly, but what am I thinking, this is a camp after all. Schedules are tight, snowballing of time means lesser rest at night. And because of this, I did some rather embarrassing things to allow other people to bath faster, and I have lots of memories on how we tried to bath as fast as we could, and others lend towels those we forgot to bring theirs to the bathroom along during the rush. Haha, the most unforgettable experience is how JE and I tried to unclog the chocked toilet bowl. (You don’t want to know what the cause of clogging is) I really couldn’t stop laughing. The entire scenario was just damn funny.

Meal time (Breakfast, lunch, dinner and supper)

I’m sorry to say but the breakfast was the worst of all. There was even once I couldn’t even swallow the food down because the Bee Hoon was so dry and the cabbage tasted too sweet. The lunch was still not too bad, at least the food was still rather tasty and healthy, though I’ll remember the sour bean curd experience. Dinner was quite tasty too(: Supper was the best I think. Kong Guan Biscuits and Milo! I still remember the taste of the salty Milo. The instructors said they added salt into it to replenish our lost sodium throughout the camp. I never knew you could do that!

AB Service Learning

THE BEST EXPERIENCE THROUGHOUT THE CAMP! I was close to tears when they left. It’s like, even though we only interacted with them for half a day, I already felt some sort of bond for them! The preparations were brain boggling, but thank goodness my wonderful 25^th council elects are as efficient and enthusiastic as ever (: They rock I tell you. It’s a pity ZY fell ill :/ Anyway, the modeling with clay thingy was quite fun, teaching them was quite difficult, but we didn’t bother asking them to follow the rules, because in the end, we just wanted them to learn something and have fun. So anyway, the performance part was so damn hilarious. Especially the group who did the ‘Breaking Free’ song, SC and I were laughing like mad. And the guy who kept talking about Football, I was totally clueless la, that Jermyn was really patient with him. Memorable experience(: I would love to do it again ;D

Sandcastle Building

I never knew building sandcastles could be so fun. At first we were all struggling with the building because we tried to follow the plan, in the end, aiya we just did whatever we thought of la. And in the end, it turned out fine(: The guy’s robot was AMAZING, of course not forgetting the wonderful help of the staff from the sandcastle building society (or whatever their organisation is called) as well as the help from out dearest instructors. LOL I think KANSA is a damn fun group, it’s a pity we aren’t close ): Otherwise we all can be good friends(:

Land Expedition

One expression to describe: HIONG! Seriously, lots of determination, perseverance, team effort, encouragement, craziness and sweat. At the very last few hours, we were walking at FULL SPEED. Super tiring, but at least we completed the whole expedition(: YAY ;D The biscuits were really encouraging, kept eating along the way. I went slightly crazy during the expedition because I started skipping like some maniac to force myself to move faster. And I stayed up to watch the sunrise, however it was too cloudy, so couldn’t see the sun rise at all ): Everyone was sleeping on Bedok Jetty, I can still remember the scene(: We ate breakfast at the beach(: It was a mesmerising sight (;

Overall, I think AB Camp was slacker than Elects’ Camp 2008 in terms of discipline, but for everything else, 3.5 out of 5 stars (: I want to be an Instructor next year too!

AJC Choir Concert – VoyAJe: Notes on the Road – 18 May 2008

MAGNIFICENT PERFORMANCE. Okay I have to admit that I’m no professional musician who can rate their singing and performance because I have no knowledge of music whatsoever, BUT I truly enjoyed myself because I never knew Choir Concerts could be so interesting and fun(: Andrea looked so cute in that yellow dress(: The costumes are really gorgeous and glamorous! I watched with Sophia and Shermaine at the Esplanade Concert Hall. SUPER HUGE. I was surprised at the size, perhaps it’s due to the lack of experience in watching concerts. Glamorous glamorous glamorous! The songs they sang were lovely, especially “Sixteen going on Seventeen”! I’m so glad I went for the performance (x

Kung Fu Panda

I’ll rate this show at ‘The Dango’, so go take a look at my comments on it at a later date! It’s a super hilarious show! It was comical up till the very end! And I couldn’t stop laughing throughout the fighting scene. FOR THOSE WHO LOVE TO LAUGH, YOU HAVE TO CATCH THIS SHOW! The name ‘Master Oog Way’ always cracks me up! Hehe (x

Okay, so that’s about it for now.

I have not studied or revised, MYEs are coming up, and I’m still happily watching movies every night and researching on Disney Movies.

Prince Derek & Princess Odette <3

Ohh Princess Odette is just drop dead gorgeous (:

2008-05-10T01:03:00.002+08:00

Missing in Action.

But not anymore (:

I've finally decided to take time out to update my blog.
Despite the fact that I still have to finish up my part for my group's GPP for tomorrow's (more like today's) PW meeting at Admirality Macdonalds.
But I have to be mature and learn how to set my priorities right (I learn this lesson from someone). I've made countless of empty promises saying I'll update my blog, but till now I never did, so yeah, here I am (:

Anyway, this is a word of caution as I seriously care about my friends health more than anything else at this very moment.

WARNING: PLEASE DO NOT CONTINUE READING THIS POST IF YOU ARE EXTREMELY EXHAUSTED AS THIS POST WILL BE VERY TEDIOUSLY LONG AND IT WILL DRAIN YOUR ENERGY AND SPOIL YOUR EYESIGHT.

I'll have reminders during this post to remind my readers (are you sure there are people reading my blog anyway?) to take short break while reading this loooooong post.

So, are you ready? (:

(It'll be in the order from past events to latest events)

Council Polling Day
LOL I can't believe I'm posting about this now when I'm already a Council Elect.
Anyway, that day was actually less grand than I thought it would be. And seriously, the shading part was confusing and I already knew 2 people who shaded wrongly. But anyway, it's already over and everyone who got in deserved it(: Thank you all those who voted and supported me (: I will really try my absolute best to do whatever I can to make AJC a better place for all of us (:

Movie Fest 2 - Residential Evil 4
I KIND OF REGRETTED WATCHING IT D:
It's horribly scary ): It's so bloody and disgusting and the zombies look seriously freaky! But I was watching it after we finished our Nominees Mission with some of the Nominees (they are all Elects now) and it was quite fun watching it in the LT1. I hugging my shoebag at those scary parts and that stupid KYH kept laughing at my reaction :/ Anyway, it's seriously very bloody and unrealistic and I will NEVER EVER WASTE TIME WATCHING SUCH A MOVIE AGAIN. Unless absolutely necessary or if I'm watching with a group of friends(:
Seriously don't understand why is Residential Evil so nice to some. Hmm, this proves the statement, "One man's meat is another man's poison". Oh wells. What a scary movie ):

KFC Supper (After Movie Fest 2)
SUPER HILARIOUS xD
A huge difference in the atmosphere as compared to the frightening experience I had earlier during Movie Fest 2(: KYH was showing very cool magic tricks, which some left us girls awed and amazed. SSW was being extremely lame and funny. And RL, YL and I just couldn't stop laughing and making a fool of ourselves trying to solve the mystery behind those magic tricks. I had a great time that night that made me really relax after all that Mission preparations and Council stuff. Thanks guys(: We shall go KFC and eat again sometime! Though I should really stop snacking and eating unhealthy food and growing even fatter :/ Sighs oh wells. I rather be fat & happy.

Songs I've fell in love with
Recently I've been falling in love with English slow/soft rock songs again.
And it has once again made me think deeper, reflect about life and re-approach myself and all that. Just like back in Secondary School days. Songs like "Fall to pieces", "One in a million", "Accidentally in Love", "Cry on my shoulder", "You and Me", "Remember me this way", "Teardrops on My Guitar" and a whole lot more kept replaying in my head over and over again. This is also the time I realised a part of my heart is in love with MUSIC.

HITSUGAYA & HINAMORI
Do I still have to elaborate on this couple pairing? <3
Laugh out Loud! I'm beginning to look at their pictures again and began falling in love/getting addicted onto Manga and Anime again. Yes, I know, bad timing for such an addiction, but I don't know why I feel really happy and relax whenever I read manga or watch anime that I love (: I guess this is what you call a hobby.

Being a Council Elect...
Means setting a good example, means wearing a prominent white tag which causes you to get more scoldings from teachers once you make silly mistakes, means becoming busier and doing more stuff for council (and of course getting to know more friends), means you have to keep up to your tutorials and get good grades for everything (which is what I have NOT been doing), and most importantly, it means doing your best for the student population and serving others with pride and passion.
The only worry I'm worrying right now is about COPING.
One major lesson I have yet to learn!
Hope God will give my opportunities to teach me this lesson.
And I still fall back to my theory of, The harder you fall, the faster you learn.
I just don't want to be permanently disabled from it.

Ding ding ding ding! This is a reminder to take a short 1 minute break from the computer screen so as to rest your eyes and reduce the chances of worsening your eyesight! Please only continue reading once you have rested(: Thank you.

Students' Council Elects Camp 2008
Memorable, enriching and I absolute love it.
It's like a uniformed group camp(: It met my expectations somehow but I felt it could be even more strict, though I know many of us might not be able to take it if the discipline level was as high as Higher Order Games for both days. The standardisations, the shoutings, the strictness and the discipline. Fantastic <3

Day 1
Reported early in the morning outside LT2 with our 1.5L bottles and our camp stuff. I was really excited about it(: We were given instructions and briefed about the camp procedures. The way Nicholas, Belinda and Seira gave out instructions and the way we were asked to stand in SENANG DIRI position were clear signs about what this camp will be like, and I just can't help but smile to myself (: We were asked to standardise the way we put our things for our bunks and we were given time limit for everything we do, so much like RedCross cadet days. 1,2,3, READY! PERMISSION TO BEGIN COUNCILORS! YES COUNCILOR! PERMISSION FOR TIME EXTENSION COUNCILORS! My wonderful small Unit SIX is great! We were all outspoken and constantly helped each other out, and of course we made mistakes here and there that until now I haven't forgotten them. The games we played were really challenging with various kinds of obstacles and limitations. We still did our best and worked together as a team. Thank you for making Elects Camp 2008 so wonderful for me, my dearest members and unit captains! We were always reflecting on the learning points after every 3 games, which I taught was a really good idea and had a great impact on us as we realise our mistakes and tried to not make them in the future games we played. Of course, there were many times we were pumped and punished and scolded, but it really caused the entire 25th SC Elects to be more bonded and united. So I was really happy that everyone did their best in cooperating. There were workshops we had to attend during the camp, and some of them (I'm sorry I have to admit) were really boring and I nearly dozed off (which we got scolded for, because apparently I wasn't the only Elect who felt this way).

Meals (Lunch and Dinner)
I think the meal bonding games were really interesting! I never played them before and it really made our meal times more enjoyable and funny! Some members in our group have to be blindfolded and we had to feed each other with our blindfolds on! Then we also had to eat our food in a certain order, with our other group members directing us where to use our spoons to scoop the food! MK was really very funny and patient when directing me because I couldn't scoop the food properly! And I'm so sorry SH that I dropped rice on you because I couldn't see where I was suppose to feed! Meal bonding games taught me one major lesson - TRUST YOUR GROUP MATES/LEADER.

High Order Games
Exhausting, demanding and high in discipline. Seriously pumped like crap for every mistake made and our group did made many mistakes. I was really frustrated why Mark and I couldn't carry the Jerry can properly but we endured till the end with the help of SH and MK and our UCs. There were some games which was physically demanding and there were times my mind was set to CADET MODE and I really could feel my heart thumping in fear and excitement. My dear frellies, doesn't this remind you of our cadet days? At the end, after all the scoldings, after all the lessons learned and after all the shoutings, we washed up in quick time (I meant washed up, not bathe, I rinsed my hair in the sink with YL and some others though), wrote our reflections and went to sleep in our sleeping bags.

Day 2
Woke up early at 4am to play a interesting Murder game! We found the body of the victim! Which was the dummy my CG made for Campaigning(: We guessed the murderer correctly because of ZC's insightful contribution! Haha! And RL and I were so freaked out at the track in the dark that we missed out a clue ): The bottle with poison! ARGH! What a pity! Anyway, I sort of enjoyed the game though I was really tired from the previous day's activity already. PT was seriously not to my expectations because Sophia and I taught it was going to be very high in discipline and all that. PT was wacky and crazy, thanks to our PT I/Cs (: We played captains ball after that and we kept cheering all sort of House/Alliance cheers! We cleaned up our bunks and had a discussion session with our UCs.

Day 2 was really more slack than Day 1 but we all tried to meet the proper expectations as far as possible, fearing that we would get punished again if we make any single mistake we weren't suppose to make. Elects Camp 2008 ended with a blast because we took photos and started dancing IGBM which brings back memories of being an OGF(: Then, in our sweaty and stinky attire, some of us went to eat lunch at KFC and chatted away(:

I really won't forget Elects Camp 2008(: Thank you for all the organising and preparations Elects Camp ADHOC! And I ABSOLUTELY LOVE OUR 25th SC ELECTS CHEER!!! Lena is so funny and cute (:

AJ Idol preparations
Of course, this means more painting, more organising of meetings and more smsing and calling of
people up. My poor phone bills ): I tried to help out as far as I could and I think I sounded really domineering and demanding when passing down instructions to the Elects from the AJI ADHOC. I'm so sorry my fellow Elects ): I didn't mean it! Stayed back till 6 plus almost every day to help out with AJ Idol preparations which was kind of tiring and a good form of exercise because I was running here and there most of the time. And the AJ Idol Promotion video was so embarrassing for me! If only Sneha was the reporter because she best fit the job! It was quite fun and crazy doing the video actually, though I had a number of NGs. WJ was hilarious and SW was being so sissy that the rest of us couldn't stop laughing till our cheeks hurt!

Finally, AJ IDOL arrived

AJ Idol - 2 May
Though LC and I were placed as I/Cs, I seriously felt I did not do my job. Anyway, I think AJ Idol was rather fun and it was really heartwarming and interesting to see so many talents in AJ. This shows that AJCians aren't muggers okay! It's a pity that LC and I didn't get to see most of the performances as we had to usher the contestants to the backstage. Thank you Mr CC for helping us buy dinner (which I gobbled down within 2-3 minutes because it was quite nice and I was starving). Congratulations to our new AJ IDOL - Cheryl! I expected her victory because her singing is really amazing. The emcee was totally crapping in a good way and it made the entire event quite funny and entertaining(: After the event, we had debriefed and had to pack up the remaining souvenirs in quick time. Seriously, 25th SC Elects can cooperate and work together really fast! I'm sure even the councilors were amazed at our speed! Hahaha! Went home after that, because I was really exhausted and it was late! I heard JH and the others went to eat Macs till midnight! I shall join them some other time(: Hehe.

Ding ding ding ding! This is once again another reminder to take a short 1 minute break from the computer screen so as to rest your eyes and reduce the chances of worsening your eyesight! Please only continue reading once you have rested(: Thank you.

Track and Field Meet - 30th April
The first thing I want to say is, THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH PANTHER CHEER-LEADING TEAM! We may not have won for Cheerleading, BUT I SERIOUSLY CANNOT EXPRESS MY GRATITUDE AND HOW PROUD I AM OF YOU GUYS IN JUST WORDS ALONE! Thank you so much for the hard effort and countless and countless of trainings and practices that you all have to stay in school until 9-10pm. I truly regret not attending to any of your practices because we had to prepare other stuff for TFM like Panther House banner and Panther House Identities! If I could go back in time, I would have helped you all out more and attend at least one of your practices! I'm so terribly guilty and sorry ):

Panther managed to get second in place, we lost to Cougar ): But ultimately, I'm super sure every one tried their best, especially the competitors and cheer-leading team! And to the two Pantherians, Thank you for standing up again when you fell down and drop the baton during the running events! You showed us the spirit of determination and perseverance, as well as the fighting spirit to fight for Panther! That's the PANTHER SPIRIT we all should have! Well done! We are all very proud for you so it isn't your fault okay!

The ending of TFM wasn't very pleasant for me because of the mistakes I make again.
But well, I'll learn how to keep my mouth shut and be less loud one day ):

School Field Trip to BMTC - 7 May
Seriously very interesting! I was expecting myself to be very bored but going to BMTC inspired me and encouraged me to once again have the dream of going to NS! But I'm fully aware that at my current physical state, I'm not ready for NS. I've yet to really sit and down talk to my parents about whether I should go to NS because there are many disadvantages for me if I were to go for NS. Stupid chimpanzee LMH and the other class guys kept encouraging me to go but I don't want to be influenced by their encouragements ): The shooting was fun! (Thanks TYY for informing me before hand so that I got a chance to shoot!) I wanted to try the guy style but we didn't have time ): Anyway, that stupid chimp LMH helped AJ in doing 24 Pull Ups because we didn't want to lose AJ's face and we wanted to show to that instructor that AJ could do better than other schools. Thanks chimp, though you should go see a doctor about your wrist! The bunks at BMTC looks surprising clean and the food looks really good. Oh wells, should I go for NS? I wonder whether there's a separate Female Platoon or something :/

NAPFA
I was truly amazed at my own 2.4km timing, AND IT IS ALL THANKS TO HJX(: Thank you so much for pacing us and I'm really sorry for not waiting for you at the very end of the race! WHY DIDN'T YOU SPRINT WITH ME WHEN WE AGREED TO???? You deserve all the credit for my A in 2.4km run! Thank you so much HJX, the hot and sexy tortoise(x

Five stations was the section I was most worried about, especially IPU and Standing Board Jump. I'm really grateful towards the teacher in charge for IPU for accepting my score even though she said I jerked the last few times I did it. I will train much harder for next year's NAPFA and get an A! I did exceptionally well for SBJ because I used the theory of Projectile Motion (even when I didn't even do the tutorial and do not understand a thing about it). I deproved in my Sit and Reach, but I could have done better ): Anyway, I'm pretty sure it's a GOLD for me(: You can do better for next years NAPFA my dear Cheryl(: And I heard from Sophia Red Bull really works. HAHA!

Project Work - GPP & PI
Seriously tiring and exhausting to do it. But it has to be done. Frankly saying, I'm very worried for my PI because I'm pretty sure I screwed it up and our GPP seems a little - Nonetheless, we'll try our very best, okay? In addition, I really want to thank Ms J.Lee for being so helpful and patient towards us and for giving us comments and suggestions to improve our GPP. Thank you for your time and effort! We really appreciate it!

Sighs, major events recap are done.
And I still have tons of work not completed.
ALevels Chinese Oral is coming, and I really want CCP to teach me Chinese again, am I right Goners? I terribly miss her and her lessons ):
The recent common tests are killing me because I'm super sure I'll fail Physics, Econs and Chemistry. My only hope is Math CT ):

I failed my GP essay terribly and I am really wondering how to improve my GP standard. Mr CYC is a really great GP tutor that I really don't know what will happen if he leaves us in June ): I think my fellow TwentyFours will agree with me. I'm looking forward to ABCDE (Alpha-Bravo Camp Delta Experience) and HJX is now our new Class Rep! Hurray Hurray(:

I really hope that I can attend AJ's Choir Concert at the Esplanade on the 18th May because I bought the tickets with Sophia and Shermaine already!

I'm starting to fall in love with violin and guitars ): Which is NOT a good sign ):

Oh yeah, I'm planning to start up a blog (which I'm not sure whether I have the time to update) which is solely for my reviews of Cartoons, Animes and Manga so that I can keep track on what I'm watching or reading!

Before I forget, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY XIAOXIAODERONGBAO, CHERYL AND WYNN (aka The Weather Girl) <3 May all you lead a happy life and LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST MY DEARS! Smile and live strong! All the best in everything you do and I'm glad I have such wacky, wonderful and crazy friends like you three(:

I'm missing Crescent again, and I know I'm not the only ex-Crescentian who feels this way <3

MidYears are coming up and I really really hope I can be disciplined enough to study hard for them ): Like seriously, I'm lagging behind by 1000 miles and being part of OCIP will make things worse, though I'm looking forward to OCIP (x

I'm starting to fear, again :/
My biggest fear now, is being retained :/

Lord, please teach me and help me ):

2008-04-13T16:51:00.002+08:00

I promise to post a super duper long recap on the these two weeks' events! BUT BUT BUT BEFORE I FORGET! I think this quiz is HILARIOUSLY ACCURATE. I saw it while browsing music in Imeem.com. (Yes yes I'm suppose to be studying :/ )

I did the quiz and it was somehow accurate. LOL, I'm forever amazed by how such silly online quizzes can actually make sense!

Why not you try it(:

Don't look at the answers at the
bottom. Do the test first .

Remember, you need to take serious
thought into these questions!

1. What is your favorite out of these three?
a. cat
b. bird
c. dog

2. What is your favorite color?
a. pink
b. white
c. black

3. Name a person of the same gender/sex.

4. Name a person of the opposite gender/sex.

5. Do you like the mountains or the beach better?

6. Do you like to watch the sunrise or the sunset?

7. What's your favorite number from 1-10?

8. What is your favorite plant?
a. Red rose
b. Fern
c. A dead one

9. What is your favorite season?
a. Spring
b. Winter
c. Summer

RESULTS
1. a) Cat: you love yourself the most.
b) Bird: you like hearing yourself
talk.
c) Dog: you put others before
yourself.

2. a) Pink: you're outgoing
b) White: you're classical.
c) Black: you're living on the edge.

3. They are your lucky star.

4. You'll become very, very close
friends with them.

5. a) Mountains: fast paced wedding.
b) Beach: slow paced wedding.

6. a) Sunrise: you're a morning person
and you get more done.
b) Sunset: you are romantic and you
fall in and out of crushes slowly.

7. The number you picked is how many
it will take before you find your true
love.

8. a) Red rose: your life will be
beautiful,but sometimes thorny.
b) Fern: your life will be
predictable and safe.
c) A dead one: your one sick person

9. a) Spring: you're hopelessly
romantic.
b) Winter: you're a hugging kind of
person.
c) Summer: you're a bare all kind
person.

I'll be back later at midnight (:

2008-04-07T20:57:00.002+08:00

So many things to talk about I just have to note it down first:
1) Council Polling Day
2) Movie Fest
3) KFC supper (SUPER HILARIOUS!)
4) Death Note movie
5) Numerous songs I fell in love with
6) Falling in love with HistuHina <3
7) And of course getting hook onto Anime & Manga
8) Happy Birthday my dear Xiao Xiao de Rong <3

But right now,
since I promise two people I'll do my work,
I will just upload this song that I once again fell in love with after reading the lyrics on XR's blog. Like seriously, I was kind of searching for this song for so long but all the while I couldn't be bothered to find out the song title.
So here it is (:

Serena, one piece of advice,
BE BRAVE & HAVE FUN(:
All the best to you!

I love Crescent Girls' School.

2008-04-01T21:31:00.003+08:00

I'm starting to wonder
Do you guys know the main reason why I haven't been blogging for so long?

I think my fellow AJ-Crescentians should know why.

Yes, I'm running for Students' Council.

And as for now, I'm just a Student Council Nominee!

So far, the campaigning and mission experience and process is exhausting,
both physically and mentally.
But I seriously made more friends and I just learned 2 lessons!

It may be draining and sometimes you feel like giving up,
but hey, I think most of you should already know what kind of person I am.

I'll never give up without a fight.
Trust me, I'll fight all the way, no matter what it takes.

Once again, I was reminded of my Crescent Red Cross days.

And once again,
I finally realised the reason why(:

And so, it begins.

This time, watch me live life.

Thank you for all your support, my dear friends(:

2008-03-26T23:57:00.002+08:00

Not good.

Seriously, not good.

Where the hell is my motivation, passion,
and most importantly,
enthusiasm?

It has lost its meaning.

And now I'm asking myself why.

2008-03-16T23:20:00.000+08:00

Yeah I know I'm suppose to update,
and the most ironical thing is that I'm not updating during my "holidays" and I update only when the new school term starts.

But I'm so sorry to say to those who are waiting for my updates(is there anyone reading this blog anyway? that I have no mood to update today, even though tons of things happened during the past one week.

However for now,
I shall type out the ten things that I'm thinking of right this very second:
1) Julie Garwood is another great author(:
2) Edlyn's taste in romance novels is 100% reliable(: (I LOVE YOU DEAR)
3) I still have not done 99% of my homework.
4) I'm lagging behind in my studies as compared to my schoolmates.
5) Talking on the phone can be an addiction.
6) I'm a super spoilt only-child. (What's new about this)
7) I'm super fat and have an urge to go on an extreme diet. (Though I'm pretty sure I won't make it after one day)
8) Anderson Junior College uniforms aren't that bad. (AND WE LOOK GOOD WITH TIES!)
9) I'm thinking whether I should join Guitar Ensemble as a second CCA.
10) I suck at tennis, big time.

I'll be back. (: